Making Space for Emotions – A Do It Yourself Guide for Healing Your Emotions.

I would like to introduce you to Irene Langeveld, my first ever GUEST BLOGGER.  Irene is a dear friend and gifted healer.  I think you will enjoy her views on Making Space for Emotions.

Angel Blessings,

Danielle

 

 

– by Irene Langeveld

Emotions are some of the most beautiful AND challenging aspects of living life as a human. I believe that it is very important to acknowledge and feel your emotions, all of them. There is no point in denying or neglecting challenging emotions because when you do that, they will hit you again at a later time. And when they do, they might hit you even harder than before.

Emotions have a purpose. The can teach us. They can help us heal traumatic experiences from the past. They can help us release what no longer serves us. They can help us make different choices.

When you want to heal difficult experiences and let go of challenging emotions, it is important find a balance between feeling the emotions and making sure that you keep moving forward and don’t get stuck in the emotions. In order to find that balance, I always advise to work with the emotions that come up in the now moment. There is no need to go look for the emotions. They will show themselves in the right time.

Maybe you suddenly find yourself in a situation that reminds you of a traumatic situation earlier in your life. This can bring up intense emotions and reactions. The gift of the current situation is that it helps you heal your past by bringing to the surface the emotions that you haven’t released yet. It is an opportunity to look deeper and do your healing work. After you’ve cleared the emotions that came up you will be able to move on with greater ease and clarity.

Sometimes the emotions that need to be healed don’t show themselves completely at first sight. It can feel like they are present somewhere in the background, causing you to not feel completely well. It is only when you take the time to look at them and bring them to the forefront that they really show themselves.

In my life, this usually shows as a general feeling of not feeling 100%. I’m not unhappy, but I’m not happy either. Often I don’t feel motivated to do things or I’m not focused. In those situations I now know that there is something for me to look at in the emotional realm. After I’ve done my inner work I usually feel much better.

This process of inner exploration is what I’m going to share with you here. It will help you get clarity on what you’re working with, go to the core and release the emotion. Here we go:

The first step in this process is to be aware that there actually IS an emotion to work with. This may sound silly but if you keep running around with this nagging feeling in the background and don’t pay attention, nothing will move. It might take some time for you to find your personal signals that show you that you have something to look at.

After you’ve noticed or suspected that there are emotions asking to be healed, then you need to be willing to take your time to look at that emotion and to help it shift. There are several ways you can do that.

Sometimes it is enough to just be quiet and take a few deep breaths. The stillness and breathing might bring up the emotion. Just keep breathing with whatever you are feeling. Focusing on your breath will help you stay in the here and now.

The emotion might get stronger when you actually sit down and pay attention, and that is perfect. It shows that it is moving. You will feel much better after you’ve allowed that wave of emotion to flow through you. When it can flow through you it can then leave you.

If you feel tension in a specific part of your body you can imagine that you breathe towards that place. That will help ease the tension. You’re not pushing anything out, you are just allowing everything to be as it is and allowing it to move through you.

Sometimes just being with whatever is present in you is all that is needed. Other times, you might need to go deeper.

 

When I feel that the emotion isn’t moving I know I need to dive deeper and see if there is something for me to learn or to know about the emotion. When that happens I usually start a conversation with myself. Speaking the words out loud forces me to formulate the words and get specific. Here are some suggestions for questions you can ask yourself to get to the core of the emotion.

When you’re feeling anxious or fearful, you can ask yourself:

“What am I afraid of?” “What would happen if this situation that I’m afraid of arises?” “Why is that so bad?” Keep asking the why-questions until you feel you are at the core. Breathe with all the feelings that might come up during this process. Breathing allows everything to shift. You are clearing the fear in this way. When you are at the core of your fear, you will usually feel it or have a knowing that ‘this is it’.

When you’re feeling angry, you might ask yourself:

“Why am I angry?” “What do I think I need from the other and why? “Do I feel I am not being seen, valued or acknowledged?” “Why is that so bad?” “do I feel threatened and why?” “What does this situation remind me of?”

Some people feel sadness where other people feel anger. This might have to do with how much you have been allowed to feel anger in your life. If you were never allowed to be angry, you could have developed a pattern where you feel sad instead of angry. If that is the case you can use the questions about anger on your sadness.

Sadness doesn’t always need to be crystal clear. Sometimes when you’re feeling sad, just the allowing of that feeling is what is needed. Grief needs to be felt more than analysed.

Beneath anger is often a fear. Fear of being rejected or misunderstood, fear of not being safe, fear of not being taken care of, etcetera. If you notice this, continue with the questions about fear and anxiety and keep breathing with everything that comes up. This is deep healing work that you’re doing and it is important to acknowledge that.

And that brings me to my final point: When you’ve done your healing work like this, make sure you take really good care of yourself. You deserve it! Take a bit of rest or do something that makes you smile if that’s possible. Be proud of yourself and be gentle with yourself the rest of the day.

About Irene Langeveld

 

    Irene Langeveld is an intuitive coach & speaker dedicated to helping people live a joyful, heart-centered life.      She offers coaching and online courses on heart-centered living, intuitive development and emotional re-  balancing. Her passion is to integrate the higher energies into her everyday experiences and to help others do the same.

If you’d like to get a taste of Irene’s work and her heartfelt meditations, watch her free video & meditation series on Heart Centered Living on her website: www.IreneLangeveld.com

You can also listen to Irene’s free grounding meditation to balance and center yourself: www.IreneLangeveld.com/grounding-meditation/

 

2014 , The Year of Power – Channeled Message from the Arch Angel Jophiel

2014, The Year of Power

Channeled Message from the Arch Angel Jophiel

The following is a transcript from a channeling I did on January 10th, 2014 in Las Vegas at Enchanted Forest Reiki.  The room was full of amazing people and energy.  As I connected to the Arch Angel Jophiel, this beautiful message about the upcoming year came through:

 

Dear Ones,

It is indeed a great honor and a great blessing to be with you this evening.  This start of a miraculous new year.  And I use the term miraculous not lightly, for there are many miracles in store for each and every one of you.  The past year has been one of turbulence for so many.  It has been a way of weeding out what has not worked.  Many of you have gone through trauma, through turmoil, through your relationships, through your businesses, your careers, your finances.  You have said goodbye to those you loved so dearly and to belief systems and truths that you held so closely to your heart.  This has been a way for you to realize what no longer serves you.  Not to cause you distress or sadness or grief, but to figure out what you really embrace as your truth.  For were you not to weed out these different things that no longer worked for you, you would not know your heart.  You would not know the strength of your soul, of your spirit.  You would not be closer to understanding your mission and purpose for this lifetime.  This is a plane of duality, Dear Ones.  You learn not only by the light, but you learn by the lower vibrations as well.  Those of grief, of sadness, of loss, of negativity.  These are all valuable lessons and you each have chosen to be here on this plane of duality and experience all of these different emotions, all of these different lessons, because you have that strength within; because you are that light within.  Not every soul comes down from Home and plays human, Dear Ones, only the strongest do.  And though you may ask yourselves, “What did I sign up for?”  Inside, in your heart, in that space where the spark of Source and Creator resides, you know full well why you signed up for this.  You know your purpose.  You know your strength.

Each and every one of you come to the lesson of light as you chose to inhabit this physical form.  You choose your struggles.  You choose the ones that you connect with around you. Though seemingly, it may seem not as if you made these choices and yet you have.  For even within the greatest tragedies and traumas come the most valuable lessons and gifts.  This is the year where thinking shifts more to seeing the gift in all things than seeing simply the trauma and the tragedy.  This is the year where perception changes and you truly embrace that higher view of why you’re here.  And when those things come up and when you face those catastrophes and when you face that chaos, you will have the wherewithal to step back. Pull back from the emotion of it, take a deep breath and center, and realize this is merely an experience.  This is a phase.  This is an opportunity.  This is a lesson.  This catastrophe, this trauma, this turmoil does not define who I am.  It is merely an experience.  And as you each know, each experience to you is a drop in the vast ocean.  For you are all souls having a human experience.  This is not your first dance upon this planet, Dear Ones.  You have incarnated many times.  You have learned many lessons before and have various missions and purposes which you have fulfilled.

 Because of the heightened vibration and energy both on this planet and within humanity as a species, you will connect to a greater degree to your soul and its totality.  So when you begin hearing the voices seemingly coming from nowhere, seeing the shadows out of your peripheral vision, having visions of your own or very vivid dreams that you can’t seem to explain, realize that these are all pieces of you.  These are different aspects of your soul.

And as you come into this time of 2014, this is the time where you merge with your soul and all its different pieces; all its different aspects and parallels that reside in different dimensions.  It is a choice.  You can choose to actually feel and sense all of your different parallels, or you can choose to just have the awareness. But either way as your vibration raises, those indications from all of your other senses you’ll be feeling it, you’ll be smelling it, you’ll be seeing it, you’ll be tasting it, you’ll be knowing it.  So know that these changes, and many of you have already felt them; you’re either feeling them now or they’re very closely on their way–they are here to aid you.  They are not here to cause you further distress.  They are here to be used as a tool.

If I were to give you an analogy of the human heart, there are many different vessels within a human heart.  There are many different atriums within a human heart.  You are going from an aspect of merely operating on one valve in a heart and to this year using it full force.  Think of the possibilities, Dear Ones.  Think of the amazement that lies ahead of you.  The places of joy that you will reach.  The different things that you will be able to sense and feel and manifest.  And because your vibration is higher, because the frequency upon this planet is higher, your manifestation skills and abilities are also heightened.  Be very mindful of your thoughts, Dear Ones.  For when you wake up in the morning and you look at yourself in the mirror if you say you are poor you are indeed poor.  If you say you are unhealthy, you are indeed unhealthy and that affirmation is a command to the universe and in a frequency such that you are vibrating at, it becomes your reality in an instant.

Be kind to yourself.  Treat yourself with the compassion that you treat others with.  I do not understand when I look, and I feel, and I sense every single one of you how you could see anything other than perfection.  You are created as a god.  You are created as the spark of Source.  How could you not see that as beauty and light and wonderment?  That is all I see and sense in this room.  And if you take but one thing home with you tonight, I pray you take that with you.  That you are indeed a spark of Source.  You are indeed a bright light worthy of all the love in existence in the entire universe.  We on the other side watch you in wonderment.  We watch how you are these beautiful vast beings of light, these amazing souls that you are, and how you fit into a very tiny, tiny vessel.  It is amazing to us how you pull a veil over your eyes because you agreed to and that you forget the wonderment of Home.  You forget your vitality.  You forget your ability and your power and your light.

It is as if there is a door blocking you from your own connection to your soul.  And I ask you to open that door.  Don’t just put a foot in.  Open it wide open.  Allow that light to fill you.  For there are portals, there are vortexes opening, allowing that energy to rush through on this earth plane right now.  So many things–if you listen to your media, if you listen and you watch your TV programs or your newspapers or your internet–are telling you how terrible the world is around you.  And there are reasons for things failing right now.  It’s because the system never worked in the first place.  It’s because you are awakening.  You are remembering your power, your strength, and your light.  And you are putting that firm boundary on the ground and saying, “No more.”  How wonderful is that?  And again I remind you to look for the gift in each lesson as these different programs and these different systems will be in upheaval.  And if you were merely to look at it with your analytical mind and your logical thinking you would go into fear.  But if you step back and you merge with that heart space, take the deep breath, and call all of your soul in, you will realize the gift.  You will see the lesson and you will be able to step away from the split second firing of fear that is such a human emotion.  This is the year of taking back your power, of being within your power—calling it in to its full degree.

There’s so much light ahead of you.  So much healing will occur this year, both physically, mentally, spiritually.  And as each of you step forward and receive this healing and this understanding, you create that space for everyone around you.  You create that space for Mother Earth herself and what a beautiful gift to give–believing enough in yourself to shine your own light so that you affect the lives of others.  Isn’t that why you’re all here?  Wasn’t that the agreement on the other side before you decided to play human? You were going to do the best job you could possibly do, not just move through the motions, but to truly shine.

The energetics that are set for this year are very reminiscent of the times of Lemuria.  The times when we all worked together side by side–angels, masters, humans, souls, spirits, light beings, animals, minerals.  We all worked for the greatest good of all.  The ego didn’t come into play.  We opened up our hearts to connect with one another to be a supportive force for each other.  To join and merge our own light and our power together.  To assist one another, hand in hand, side by side, heart to heart.  The energy frequencies are so similar to those of Lemuria.  Other galaxies within our universe are watching, are assisting, are adding their light, are adding their love and their power and their intention to help and assist you to manifest something wonderful.

You’ve noticed how your technology has changed really within the last few years.  How things seemingly can happen in a split second of time and how time itself has changed.  This all has to do with your perception, how your physicality takes in this energy, how your mind and your brain function.  I would ask you also to please listen to your bodies for they are becoming attuned to this energy.  As they attune to this energy there will be some things to work out.  Just as in the past year you have gone through different ways like a roller coaster ride—things that worked for you, things that didn’t work for you, releasing things from your energetic form, releasing things from your relationships–now you will find that your physical self also has to integrate that higher vibration.  You might find physical symptoms that seemingly come from nowhere, that you can’t explain, and that a doctor cannot explain.  Feel your own bodies.  See where those blocks reside.  If you’re getting a physical reaction there is an emotional and a spiritual reason for that.  Go into quiet time.  Connect with your heart.  Ask for your guidance, your higher realms, your angels, your guides to be around you and offer you assistance.  Connect with the Earth for she has always been there to heal you and to help you and to assist you.

This is also a very wondrous time of bringing forth the divine feminine to a higher frequency and a higher level than it has been on this planet in centuries.  The divine feminine, which resides in all of you, both male and female, is about nurturing.   It’s about compassion, but it is also about beginning.  It is also about rebirth.  It is also about power and protection.  This will also be very prevalent in the coming year. ….

Thank you all for coming here this evening.  We are all gathered here by choice, not by coincidence.  The energies that each of you bring have created this space.  The light that each of you shines has created this beautiful experience and I am blessed and honored to be a part of it.  Thank you so much.  And so it is.

The Gift of Being a Teacher

 

 

I recently volunteered in my son’s fourth grade class and was overwhelmed by the energy of 34 nine and ten year old kids in one seemingly small room.  Walking in on a Monday morning, the teacher was swimming in a sea of small children with backpacks, lunch bags, papers and questions.  I was so happy my job that day was making copies – in another room.

 

I don’t know how this amazing woman does her job.  To have that much patience must really be a gift from God.  Seriously!

I love the role I have as a Spiritual Teacher.  I don’t have to worry about hall passes or missing assignments.  I just get to be the tour guide to the light.  It is such a joy for me to see the light bulb click on inside a student’s head and witness them really embrace their Intuitive gifts.

I’ve been teaching a lot the last few months and I’ve had the blessing of seeing many students awaken in this very way.  During a recent Mediumship class, a student was obviously nervous about participating in a psychometry exercise.  Each person had brought a personal items of someone who had passed, and the students were to hold one of these items and pick up energies and imprints about the person who had owned the item.  I walked the class through the exercise and it came this man’s time to share what came through for him.  He had chosen a wallet from the group of items, and prefaced his sharing time with remarks of, “I don’t know what I’m doing,” and “I’m a beginner, I’m not good at this stuff.”  But when he took a deep breath and rattled off the impressions he received from holding the wallet, I could see a big smile paint across the woman sitting across from him.  She had brought the wallet to class.  It was her father’s.  And the man NAILED information about him that no one else in the room would have known – he had a moustache, he loved baseball, he had to quit smoking, etc.  All from picking up, holding a wallet and opening the door to connect.  I will treasure that moment for as long as I live.  It is a priceless example to me of trust.  He had never done anything like this before, and even though he was unsure of himself, he still tired.  And wow!  No words can describe the energy in the room as he was validated for the information he brought through.

 

In another recent workshop, Channeling to be exact, a student came up to me and asked, “Are you sure I can do this?”  She was very hesitant about receiving information from Source, thinking she would just be making up the messages that might come through.  I reassured her and asked her to take the pressure off herself and to just be in the flow.  When it came time for a group channeling exercise, this student brought through the most amazing, pure message from home.  Another ah-ha moment I will always reflect back on.  She was so proud of herself later and claimed that is seemed effortless.

 Witnessing  connection to Spirit through students realizing their abilities is such a blessing to me.  It’s not because I’m an incredible teacher.  It’s just because I know a few trusted roadways and maps on how to get to the light.

Life is about taking the leap and trusting.  You never know what you’re able to do until you try.

 

The Magic Within You ~Channeled Message

I was guided to channel a message last Friday night at a Spiritual Circle.  Here is what came through:

Dear Ones,

It is a grateful blessing to all of us who gather here with you this night, this moment.  For indeed there are many of us.  We have waited in anticipation for this moment, for you to call us in.

 

We are a collective energy from the other side.  Just as all of you are collective energies in your own right, you are all part of the All That Is.  Each of your hearts connects with one another.  Each of your souls connects with one another, just as you connect with us. We are each the same.  And isn’t that beautiful?  And isn’t that amazing?  And isn’t that magic?

 

Magic-what an interesting term. For many things can be called and described as magic: love, light, manifestation, abundance.  There are so many things that fall into this category.  The thrill and excitement of anticipation is quite magical in itself.  Each of you is created with the vibration of magic, for magic is in creation itself.  It is that Spark of Mother/Father God that resides inside your heart that speaks to you, that is the light itself in which you were created.  Its magic, and Dear Ones, that is you. You are a beautiful, magical being of light.  And it is only when you lose your way that you begin to doubt that fact.  It is only when you play into the ego-mind, that cynicism, that doubt, that you cloud your judgment of the magic that is within.

 

Let us remind you now of that beautiful spark of light within you.  Take a deep breath, Dear Ones, connect with that Spark of light inside you and allow it to glow.  Visualize what that is inside of you.  Give it a name, a color, a vibration, a frequency, a feeling, a sound – it doesn’t matter.  Just connect with it, for that is the magical part of you that is inside and also exists inside everyone else in existence. 

 

As you connect with this magical part of yourself, this Spark of light that is you, it creates a doorway for you to connect with that same Spark of light within others.  It is much like a web of light. It is much like the stars within the galaxy, how they connect through constellations, how they create different patterns within the night’s sky.  So being, for you as well connect with your own light, with your own frequencies, with your own magic.

 

Magic is very powerful, Dear Ones.  It is not about trickery.  It is not about illusion.  It is about truth.  It is about the truth of who you are as a soul.  You are not merely a human being.  You are a soul playing the role of human in this very moment and in the past as well.  It is magical indeed, for you come into this world seemingly forgetting your connection and your spark.  But through your experience, through your life as a human you come into different realizations and remembrances about home, about that Spark inside you, about the magic.  And you begin to remember your truth.  And you begin to connect with your soul, to know who you truly are, to feel your own power, and to realize that you are never alone. 

 

You are not small, Dear Ones.  You are greatness.  You are light itself.  And indeed, isn’t that magical as well?  As you go about your day and the self-talk comes into your mind of doubt, of worry and stress, we urge you to step back, take a deep breath; connect with that Spark that is inside that is you.  Remember the magic that you are and how you were created, how you constantly are in every moment.  It is time to wake up from the dream, Dear Ones.  It is time to own your power.  It is time, once again, to practice the magic that is you.  For as you stand in your own light, you spread this light to others.  And that, indeed, is magic as well. 

 

Remember who you are.  Trust and know that in every moment there is light all around you.  Each and every one of you is connected to all of us.  We are each the same.  We each vibrate at the same frequency of light that resides inside that spark that is you.  You are the all that is.  You are Mother/Father God, for this is how you are created and this is how you will always be.  Trust in that, Dear Ones, and don’t be afraid to practice the magic that is you. 

 

It has been a great joy coming through to you this night.   And know that we believe in your magic. 

 

And so it is.  ~*~

 

To hear the recorded version of this channeled message, visit http://www.blogtalkradio.com/intuitiveangels/2013/10/15/intuitive-angels–channeled-message–love-magic or catch my podcast on I-Tunes at  https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/intuitive-angels-channeled/id722287678?i=169204784&mt=2

 

 

Allowing Spirit to GuideMe…(and Other Adventures on the Way to El Pollo Loco)

 

Before I begin my story, let me just caution you that what I am going to share with you I DO NOT RECOMMEND.  This is something that happens to me in my line of work, and I don’t advise it for anyone.  That WARNING in place, let me continue….

 

A few weeks ago, I was into the middle of my day doing sessions and as I looked at the clock my stomach began growling.  I had exactly enough time to run to El Pollo Loco – a tasty Mexican Chicken restaurant with a drive thru window – grab some lunch and eat it at home before my next session and then pick up the kids from school.  YAY!  I was excited.  

 

I get in my car, crank up some tunes and am on my way.  I drive a few blocks and suddenly things begin to

shift.  I fall into trance.  

 

 

I hear my guides begin to speak with me about a little girl who is having some issues with disconnect going

on in her brain.  My guides show me the little girl’s brain in holographic form.  I am shown the synaptic

pathways and where there are disconnects that need some extra energy sent to remove energetic blocks and assist with the information flow of the brain.  My guides then walk me through the process of connecting to her pineal gland and completing a clearing of this energy center, as well as show me the method in which her mother, a Reiki Master,  can do this process as well.  Fascinating stuff!  It all becomes crystal clear to me that I need to share this information with the Mom.  

 

I realize, at this point, I am pulling into the parking lot at El Pollo Loco.  My stomach is still growling…..hmmmm….do I ditch lunch and call the Mom?  How the hell did I get here anyway?  There’s a line at El Pollo Loco in drive thru…..hey…I can do both!  I make the call to the Mom and start clammering on about what information came through, trying my best not to sound like a psycho lunatic and thanking God that she is open to this stuff.  Then it’s my turn in line.  

 

“Can you hold on please? ” (Mom holds)

 

“Yes, I’d like a chicken combo with beans please.  Thank you.” (give my order to drive thru)  

 

“Sorry about that.  Yes, so then you connect with her pineal gland and sense for synaptic pathways that

appear weak.  You will get a vibe on what kind of energy or symbol to send, it may even appear as a color or sound frequency.”

 

As I answer the mother’s questions, it becomes my turn to pay for and pick up my order.  I am speaking on my car’s bluetooth system so it’s on speakerphone and as I am speaking about pineal glands, brain

connection and energy work, the cashier gives me a funny look but my order comes out REALLY FAST with extra napkins and everything!  I can only imagine her thoughts on what she was seeing and hearing.  

 

While I don’t recommend trancing out while you drive, I am so happy that I was open to the experience.

 Spirit connects with us when it is divine time.  Had I waited till I had a few extra moments to spare in the day, I could’ve missed that amazing sequence of information and techniques I knew nothing about previously.  

 

You never know when Spirit is going to give you a message.  It might even be on your way to El Pollo Loco.

 

This is one reason why I avoid McDonalds…..Those Golden Arches might just be a portal of some kind.  I went there once and something stuck with me for the last 27 years.  I call him my husband.  LOL!

 

Have a blessed day~Danielle

 

 

Releasing the Demons of My Past

 

 

Many people don’t understand what happens to a child when they are sexually abused.  I can only speak from my personal experience, but I know from working with others who have been through this type of horrid happening, that they are misjudged.  People who have not stood in the shoes of a victim should not even attempt to calculate what they “would” do, because until you are put in a certain situation, you really just don’t know.

Many children will bury their hurt and their pain.  They will stuff it and pretend that it doesn’t exist.  My abuse began when I was three years old and even as the first act happened, it was my saving grace to splinter off and go somewhere else.  I can recall witnessing each encounter with my attacker from a third person stance where I was floating above the situation, removed from it.  I believe this was my first experience with the Angels and that they were assisting in this out of body type viewpoint to save me.  I know with all my heart had I not stuffed and locked away the five years of abuse I would not be alive today.  Leaving my body helped me deal with the pain.  Hiding the memory helped me deal with life.

 

As we all know, things don’t remain hidden forever.  The “secret” manifested in my body as a physical ailment and my ovarian system was a complicated wreck!  I suffered from ovarian issues beginning at age 13 and on into my mid 30’s.  In my mid 30’s during the eruption of an ovarian cyst, the memories I had hidden for so long began to come to the surface.  It was as if the body could not longer contain the pain and the secret.  Much like a volcano builds up pressure, I erupted.  

 

It’s been a long road from that moment to now.  I find it interesting that once the memories came forward that the health issues stopped.  Physical problems that had plagued me the majority of my life simply vanished.  I wish the emotional healing were that simple.  I was thrust under the microscope of those close to me, “Why didn’t you say something earlier?  Why are you telling this now?  Why can’t you just get over it?  Are you making this up?”  

 

My saddened response was, “What purpose would I have in creating a falsity like this?”  It hurt my soul to know that by many I wasn’t believed, even though this attacker had raped another relative (no, she didn’t come forward either) as well as he had made passes and advances on other family members, all of which I found out about later.  

 

I found myself trapped between two worlds for a while – the childlike me and the adult me.  It was as if I had to relive and bring those memories back into my mind in order to heal them.  I went through various stages of PTSD as memories of the abuse would come to the surface and I could not control  it.  I would be shopping at the market and suddenly the panic attack would come over me.  I could smell him, I could feel him.  It was as if I was that little girl, sprawled out on the bathroom floor all over again.  Life and my emotions became a huge balancing act.

 

Fast forward to today.  I still can be triggered, and actually that’s been going on the last few months.  When I feel as if I am under attack, emotionally or otherwise, those last bits of memories I have not healed and released come forward.  It was during one such recent moment when it came into my awareness that though my abuser was dead, his soul had not crossed.  He was an earthbound spirit, suffering and wandering the earth plane in misery.  I will admit, this information gave me some satisfaction that karma reigns supreme.  What we do to others does come back to us in one form or another.  I was pleased he was hurting.   I celebrated that he was finally getting his just rewards for the pain he had caused.  The little girl in me wanted to do the happy dance, knowing that payback was in place.

 

Weeks passed.  The triggers subsided.  Yet still the thoughts of my abuser remained in the back of my mind.  I knew, from the work that I do, that I could help him cross over.  It was a no-brainer. I’ve dealt with earthbound spirits before and assisted in their crossing to the other side.  But did I want to do this?  Did I want to end his suffering?  Didn’t he deserve to be in misery?

 

And herein lies the duality of existence – living the human life as a soul.  For with all the tools and learning I have, my human mind and human heart are still very much intact.  As a soul, I had to address this with myself.  Could I act beyond my own hurt and pain?  Could I rise above it and help the very person who had impacted my life on such a large degree?

 

I sat in deep meditation this morning with my guides around me.  It was time.  It was time to let go.  It was time to move to a deeper state of light and holding on to this pain was no longer serving me.  I shifted into healer mode, and as I did so I could feel Arch Angel Jophiel and Arch Angel Michael beside me and gathered with them were the Arch Angels Raphael and Gabriel.  I could sense my uncle and his pain as Arch Angel Gabriel brought down the tunnel of light.  Raphael and Gabriel took him by his hands to guide him through, but he resisted.  He said that it was a trap.  He was not going to the pits of hell.  He knew what was waiting for him.  

 

I walked towards him and placed my hand on his heart.  I focused on sending as much light as possible into his spirit.  As I did so, I began to clear his energy, calling to release any vibration or lower forms that were holding him here and preventing his crossing.  As the clearing progressed, I saw an entity leave his energy field.  I recognized the eyes of this entity, for I had seen it each time my uncle molested me.  With a flash, the energies were drawn into the light and suddenly my uncle was cleared.  He was lighter and brighter and his entire structure and mannerisms changed.  He stumbled forward, to the tunnel of light, turning to look back at me.  

 

“I’m sorry,” he said.  “Please forgive me.”  And in that very moment, I did.  I let it go. I forgave him.  I released the past pains as I watched him enter a space of higher vibration and unconditional love he hadn’t experienced in quite some time.  

 

And here I am, experiencing a higher vibration and unconditional love as well, just on another level.  I am here in the duality of life, realizing that being human is a juggling act.  Sometimes it’s best to act and react as the stumbling human that I am, and other times it takes embracing my soul to truly understand what this life is really all about – LOVE.

 

 

 

Does Time Really Heal All Wounds ?

This coming Sunday will mark the one year anniversary of the passing of my father, Dale Wolfe, Sr.  As the approach of this day has loomed seemingly over my head since the start of this month, it has brought much reflection to my life.  Once the calendar flipped over to the month of June, I set a conscious intention to make July as busy as possible so that I would be distracted and would not have time to feel the sadness that still knocks me to my knees at times.  There is a hole in my heart that no one else can fill.  And even though I know Dad’s spirit is around me, and seen quite often by my son, it is not the same.  That human being that I am is still a very sense oriented person.  I want to hold Dad’s hand again.  I want to feel his strong arms around me.  I want to see those hazel eyes twinkle and hear that amazing laugh.  I want and I want, but it doesn’t seem to change things.

In the higher perspective, I have the conscious awareness that it was Dad’s “time” to go.  He was ready to let go of his physical form and no longer be in pain.  Cancer is a terrible illness and involves so much on an energetic level I couldn’t even explain it in words.  If I could perhaps set off a nuclear bomb that’s radiation infects everything within it’s path for miles and miles of existence, it might begin to scratch the surface of what this horrid disease does to a person.  I am forever grateful that my dear Father no longer feels this pain or struggle within himself.

It’s been a long year without him.  Milestones and tragedies have occurred in the family.  We lost my father in law, George, six months after Dad passed, to cancer as well.  Dad’s spirit was there at the hospital as I assisted George in his transition, guiding me and supporting me every step of the way.  When I had to be strong for my husband and our family, Dad was there lending his hand and his strength to me once more.  So often I am drawn to pick up the phone and call him to share something that’s happened with my kids or ask for one of his pearls of wisdom, and then I realize that I can’t do that anymore.  But now he knows without me even saying the words.  I find myself singing the songs we liked to sing or watching the westerns we would watch together.  Recently when I went to the theater to see a new western, I could feel Dad right there next to me, talking to me about how much the Lone Ranger had changed since he used to see it.

There is much that saddens me, but in so many ways I am forever thankful for the new connection that Dad and I share.  I truly feel he is the one person in the whole wide world that ever really understood me and never judged me.  To say this man loved me unconditionally would be an understatement.  He didn’t always understand what I did, or agree with my belief systems, but he accepted me.

I hadn’t realized until just recently how much guilt I was holding onto in regards to how Dad passed.  Me, being so enlightened and all (right!) just assumed I aligned with that higher understanding of each soul choosing their exit point and transitioning when it was there chosen time.  Someone should have explained that to my unconscious and conscious mind, because in the depths of those realms laid a heavy weight of false belief thinking I could have done something different to prevent his passing and the accident that ultimately caused his death.  That little girl inside me that he’d protected and safeguarded my whole life was questioning how on earth I could not do the same for my beloved father.  Why had I failed him?  How could I fail him?

Just writing those words takes the air out of my lungs.

My father was the first to step forward upon this realization and ask to assist in helping me clear that energy.  He reassured me that it was nothing I did or did not do.  He wasn’t living a life he wanted to live anymore and he was through with hospitals, chemo treatments and being poked and prodded.  He couldn’t be the man he wanted to be and so he chose to move into a different vibration that allowed him the freedom to watch over his family.  This was his solution, he said, this was his soul-ution.  As he spoke to me a clarity came over my mind and my body.  I felt a peace I hadn’t felt in some time move through me.

So where is the gift in all this?  Of course it is that my father is no longer in pain and as the eternal soul that he is, he is still present in my life.  But is there more that I am to learn from this?  Was there something else?  I posed these questions to my Dad this morning as I enjoyed the few moments of quiet time I had.  When I looked back at the last few years in my life and the losses I’ve experienced on a personal level – two very close friends and the two fathers in my life – as well as the many transitions I’ve assisted with, I felt like there was more I was supposed to understand.

So many people turn to you to bring through messages from their loved ones who have passed because they are in such a deep state of grief, my father said.  What if you could teach them to move through that grief by connecting with their loved ones from the other side?  The healing can go hand in hand, just as it has worked for you.  Think of the times I’ve asked you to give me your pain so that I could assist you.  Think of the energy, prayer and emotional techniques you’ve used over the last year and what has helped you.  What if you could teach others this very same thing?  Moving through the emotions, connecting to their loved ones and having Angelic assistance to boot!  Sounds like a great plan to me!

Yep, Dad.  It sounds like a great plan to me too.  Looks like there is another gift here to be found.  I think I’ve got a lot of writing to do and a big project in the works now.  Good thing I’ve got help with this one!

Does times heal all wounds?  I think the void that is created when we lose a loved one through death is a deep wound.  But as with all wounds, the healing begins when we find the right remedy.  Perhaps the best soul-ution for that is filling the void with the love we feel for those that have passed and making the conscious choice to connect with them.

I love you, Daddy.  Thanks for helping me to keep moving forward, one foot in front of the other.

What I Didn’t Want to See…

Sensing Spirits and Angels can be absolutely incredible!  Being able to connect people with their loved ones on the other side is also very rewarding and healing.  Some of what I see and sense is not comfortable, and has taken some getting used to.  Some of it I will never understand and there are those instances when I will put up the barrier and down right demand that I not come into connection with certain energies.

Here’s a recent experience I’ve been dealing with over the last few days:

I was in the shower (and water is a great conductor of energy, btw, so some of our greatest visions and connections will happen around water) and a flash of a scene played out in my head. I saw a young man I connected with years ago. His face was vivid and clear. In the next instance I saw him on the floor, looking like he was passed out. Then I saw his soul leave his body. All this happened in a matter of moments. I hadn’t seen him in years. I was not close to him, had no way of contacting him, so I brushed it off. Just a weird flash of energy, I thought. Nothing more, nothing less.

Well that’s what I thought….until days later I heard through the grapevine that this man had died. He had died a sudden death, collapsing and being found hours later. The news saddened me to my core. It’s not that I felt responsible, for I know there was no way of me preventing this. I was sad because he was so young and such a beautiful soul with an amazing heart. The kind of guy that would literally give you the shirt off his back. I couldn’t figure out why I had the premonition. I don’t want premonitions. They make me feel helpless. It’s one thing to question if a certain event will happen and it’s another to be handed the information, whether you want it or not.

Years ago, when I had my first premonition, I was about 6 or 7 years old and I saw the death of a family member before it happened. That continued, and with family members I seemed to be accepting of it. Then ten or twelve years ago, I was sitting at my computer and I was shown a very intense scene – a father and son were washed away by a flash flood. I saw their bodies under the overpass, I got the name of the street. I felt the pain of their last breaths, the overwhelm of the Dad knowing he couldn’t save his son, the pressure as their lungs filled with water. I wrote the vision down and the next day looked up the street name. It happened to be in a town where a father and son were missing. They later found the bodies near the overpass of that street.

I was mad! Why on Earth would God give me this information if there was nothing I could do? I didn’t want to feel people’s deaths…I didn’t want to experience their pain. What was I going to do, call up a police department in Tim Buck Two and say oh, by the way, I was having a vision and this is what I saw? Who would believe me? Even I was second guessing my sanity.

A short time later I was asked to tap into a missing child’s case.  A friend has asked for my input.  I took the young girl’s photo and connected with her energy.  I saw her in an open field and she was playing.  Then I saw a man approach her.  He lured her to his car where he did terrible things to her and later killed the child.  I stopped the scene was it was playing out.  It knocked me off kilter.  I didn’t want to see this, didn’t want to feel it, and couldn’t separate my emotions from connecting with the evil coming from the man and the helplessness of the child.  It made me physically ill.  I threw up.  I had an anxiety attack.  It was more than my soul could bare.

I decided to make a pact with God, my guides and my Angels.  I had the big pow-wow.  I outlined what I was willing to do to be of service – energy work, shamanic travel, reading, connecting with the other side to bring through information to assist others.  I told them I would slay the demons if need be and remove dark entities from people, homes and spaces.  But what I would NOT do was allow my abilities to be used to see into situations I could offer no help or assistance.  I did not want to see things in the future that were beyond my control and I did not want to be involved in murder cases or violence against children.  I had to set my clear boundaries of what felt right for me.

Since that time, I’ve never had an issue.  One big pow-wow, the boundaries were set and I thought it was all good, at least up until a few days ago.  Why was I getting this information?  I wasn’t asking for it, that’s for sure.

So tonight, I sat down with Arch Angel Michael.  I wanted answers.  I wanted to know why our “deal” was broken.  What was the greater lesson here, cause all I was feeling was sadness and helplessness.

Arch Angel Michael’s response:

Dear One,

Breathe deeply, for I know you are upset.  This has rocked you to your core.  It makes no logical sense so allow me to show you the light within the situation.

When you first connected with this man, you saw his light.  You felt his heart.  You saw the passion for life within him and within the work he brought to this world.  You experienced his greatness and this energy was imprinted in your mind.  Though you had no personal connection with him, he impacted your thoughts on life, on humanity and on the light that can exist within a human form.  You literally came into contact with his soul that day.  You made that strong of a connection with him.

When he left this world, you felt that as well.  The days that came before his exit point, as a soul he was pondering his demise, going over the issues of being complete with his lesson and path.  You FELT THIS.  You felt this soul that touched your life contemplating his death.  It was merely an awareness coming into your consciousness.  It was nothing more and nothing less.  Just as we are all one, part of the All That Is, you felt the decision in the works for him to leave his human body and step completely into the light.  You sensed the change in energy and vibration.  Do not take this as a bad thing.  It is not negative.  Look at the amazing gift this man gave you – the ability to see a soul, to feel a heart, and to see light within motion.

Do not grieve the loss or the suddenness of the experience.  Celebrate the way one soul touched another.  Celebrate the realization and confirmation once again that the soul is eternal.

We are all one in the same.  We are of the same light, created with the same unconditional love.  Understand that as a soul you have the opportunity to touch the lives of others just as this man has touched yours.  He impacted you because you chose to be open to the experience.  You chose to open your heart and your eyes to truly see him in his entirety.  How could that be anything less than a miracle?

Allow yourself to see the light in this, my Dear.  Let go of the false belief that this was a bad experience.

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Well, put in that perspective, how could I view this as anything less than a gift?

We really don’t know the impact we have on others.  I spent less than a few hours time with this man, and yet he’s brought a profound awareness into my life.  Think of how you impact others.  When we take the time to be aligned with who we really are, we shine our brightest.

I am grateful to have connected with such a beautiful spirit.  He is much loved and forever imprinted upon my heart.

Love Never Ends; Even Through Death, A Mother’s Love and Understanding Continues

I receive a lot of emails and questions from clients in session about deceased loved ones.  Are they okay?  How do they feel about me?  Are they still angry?  Do I make them proud?  Can you tell them I am sorry for what happened?

When we are in the state of grief, it is very easy to fall into the trap of guilt, blame and shame.  You know, the “could have, would have, should have” scenarios that we play over and over inside our minds.  What many don’t realize is that when a soul transitions over into the other side, they leave behind not only their physical body but also their ego mind.  They do not carry with them judgment or prior hurts or disappointment in others.  The soul moves onto a higher state of consciousness.  In the midst of that consciousness is pure unconditional love.

I recently had a session for a man who lost his mother.  He was her caregiver and while taking care of his elderly mother at home, he encountered his own health issues that were quite severe and time consuming.  When his mother passed, he worried that he hadn’t done enough and that he could have somehow prevented her death.  He was transfixed with the look on her face as the paramedics took her on the stretcher from their home to the hospital.  It was a look of helplessness that plagued him.

Our session was conducted through his sister who came to my office with questions in hand.  She is an extremely Spiritual person, and had made peace with her Mother’s passing.  As soon as she pulled up in her car, I began to feel her Mother’s presence.  We started the session and there was a surge of strong emotion that swept over the entire room.

The son, whom I will call Tom (not his real name), wanted to know if his mother was all right.  His mother, whom I will call Sarah (not her real name) explained that she was wonderful.  She loved not being in a physical body and now being able to do everything she ever wanted to do that she couldn’t in her former life.  Sarah explained to him that it was time for him to let go of the guilt he was holding onto.  She went into great detail of how she planned her exit point to be the way it was and the time it happened for many different reasons.  If he were completely well, he would’ve taken her to the doctor sooner, which would have resulted in her being placed in a care facility which is something she did not want.  She chose to leave in the way that she did, because she did not want to burden her family.

Her love for her son was quite intense, and at times as I conveyed her messages and answers to his questions I found myself raising my voice to make sure her point was coming across.  More than a few times, tears were streaming down my face as I used her words to convey to her son how much she loved him and how she wanted him to stop beating himself up over what he thought he should have done.  “It was MY CHOICE,” she said, over and over with extreme emphasis.  “This is how I wanted it to be,” she explained and at one point in the session she even came through with his full first name, Thomas, which I whispered at the end of one of her answers.

 The client’s sister asked, “What did you say?” I repeated the full name.  She let me know that her mother called her brother this when she was adamant about something.

The session was probably the most powerful and passionate session of mediumship I’ve ever experienced.  Sarah’s love for her son was so strong, there was absolutely no way that she was not going to make her feelings about his situation known.  She made sure to cover all the bases with him so that he could move to a place of healing and understanding.

As a mother myself, I know that I would move Heaven and Earth for my children, especially if they were blaming themselves for something they thought they could have prevented.  The amount of love that flowed through this beautiful woman’s heart to her son was a true miracle and blessing.  It is just more proof that love is everlasting.  Our souls and the love we feel for others are eternal.

I am happy to say that Sarah’s loving words have helped her son move to a space of healing.  I am forever blessed to have connected with these wonderful souls and feel the immense love they share for one another.

Confirmations…And so it is!

Ever since I was a little girl and began to tap into my intuitive abilities, I wanted assurance that was I was feeling and sensing was “real”.  There has always been a need inside to provide some sort of evidence as to what I was feeling within my body and sensing inside my heart and mind.  As I got older, that same desire of proof was there, but had faded as I began to expand my intuition and trust in the insight that came through.

When information comes to me it hits me like a wave.  If you think of what its like to stand on a beach with the ocean water covering your ankles as you watch the tide come towards you, that’s similar to the energetics I receive when I pick up messages and insight.  I get a feeling of a vibration coming towards my field and then it hits me like a wave washing over me.  As more understanding comes through, the waves become higher and more intense.  I never know how long the process will take or when the direction of the awareness will change.  It literally for me is all about going with the flow.  I guess you could call it soul surfing.

My need for confirmation has changed, yet there are times when messages from Spirit come through that I will later turn to my guides and question them, “Really?”  Many of the things that come through in an intuitive or healing session do not make sense to me but have personal connection for the clients I am working with.  I find there is always a higher purpose in all situations no matter if I “get it” or I don’t “get it”.

I recently met with a beautiful young woman and her mother.  The teenage girl was quite gifted with her healing touch abilities as well as her amazing connection to the rock and crystal kingdom.  She had been bullied in school and labeled with various issues throughout her short life.  To recognize her inherent gifts would be a huge impact on her self-esteem and this is what I encouraged her to explore.  Her mother and she went to a local rock shop here in town to pick up some things so the teenage girl could start experimenting.  As soon as they arrived, the mother was put off by the energy in an area of the store and was feeling quite anxious.  She wanted to leave, but found her daughter happily exploring in another room of the shop so she decided to stay.  The young woman found a few stones that called to her and together they went to the register to pay for their purchase.  As they were checking out, the mother mentioned to the man helping them that her daughter was a natural healer and was learning more about her connection to rocks.  He asked the young girl, “Did you see the rubies behind you?”  She did not hear him, but the mother did.  “Did you say rubies?” she asked.  He nodded yes, and showed them the display.  This was a clear message from Spirit.

In her session, the girl had asked about her half-sister who had passed.  She wanted to know if she was okay now and if she had any messages for her.  The sister was doing wonderful and told my client to be on the look out for a special sign she would be sending her soon – A ruby.  My client’s sister’s name was Ruby and she wanted very much to give her validation and assistance with what she was going through in this time of her life.

What a beautiful blessing and gift.  When the mother told me of this, the tears began to flow as I once again felt the love between these two sisters.  It was also a nice confirmation to me that what I was seeing was real.

Earlier this week, I had the amazing opportunity to work with a client doing distance energy work.  I’ve worked with her several times and most recently she’d been feeling out-of-place, like she didn’t belong.  She’d gotten the intuitive nudge that she might possibly be a starseed or a starperson – a soul that has derived from another star system within the solar system.  So many of her feelings coincided with what many in this situation express.

I started with a basic chakra clearing and asked for her guides to be present.  This time, one guide I’d never seen stepped forward.  He was unlike any other light being I’ve met before.  He began to show me a technique of bringing golden light into her energy field and forming geometric shapes over and through her field.  He said that she originated from Orion and this was an ancient healing technique used there.  As her field and vibration increased, I began to see the most beautiful shapes form in front of her chakra system.  They were colorful and well-defined.  Starting at the root chakra, one pattern formed in front of it and then shot inside of the chakra itself with a surge of energy.  The guide called these formations, “The Flower of Life” and said that they would assist my client and bring her further understanding.  Her energy field was a whirl of activity, light and beauty at the end of the session.

Uhhhhhh……starpeople?  Orion? Flower of Life?  That’s a bit much for even me to swallow and I’m neck deep into the “woo-woo” stuff.  But It felt so right.  Being in the flow of the session I did not question it for a moment.  Later, when my ego mind and logic came into play, I began to doubt.

As I sat in my office pondering what had happened, I felt a familiar presence in the room.  It was Arch Angel Michael.  “Still looking for confirmations, huh?  You know there was a time when you just clapped your hands and said ‘AND SO IT IS’ and that was all there was to it.  So, Ms. Doubting Thomas, why don’t you look up The Flower of Life and see what it is?”

(and by the way, there is a part of me that finds it incredibly funny that I have no issue at all talking to Angels and carrying on conversations with them, but to think that other light beings really exist in other star system seems like a stretch for me)

What I found online amazed me.  It took my breath away.  I know of sacred geometry and astronomy, but I am not versed in those studies.  I had no knowledge of the impact of Orion to the ancients people of this planet, nor did I know that The Flower of Life was a symbol used in sacred geometry or that the two are tied together.  To discover that was a HUGE ah-hah moment for me.

Allow me to introduce, The Flower of Life…

I share this with you, not to put myself up on a pedestal, for that is not my intent.  My intent is to show you that sometimes trust and faith are vastly underrated.  We can spend so much of our time searching for validation that we miss the gifts and blessings directly in front of us.  The only confirmation that you really need is that your intuitive guidance feels RIGHT for YOU.

And let me just finish that off with a loud clapping of my hands as I affirm, “AND SO IT IS!”