The Dark Side of Living in the Light

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The Dark Side of Living in the Light

Catchy title, right?  Not wishing to be dramatic here.  Just telling it like it is.

For some people, living in “the light” means being of a higher vibration and seeing that vibration in all of existence.  That is beautiful, amazing and wonderful.  It is possible to find your Zen and look at life from the higher perspective and realize that no matter what happens in the lifetime, you are a soul with a continuous stream of existence.

For other people, they find their spirituality within the light by adapting belief systems and practices that allow them to feel closer to their higher power.  This too, is an incredible way of life.

And still others take on roles as light workers, healers, ministers and such to help people open up to their light, to empower them to embrace their spirit and their strength.  Many of these Spiritual teachers and leaders teach that we are of a vibration now where darkness no longer exists, while others will pound the reality of evil into the forefront of their teachings to elicit fear.

So where is reality in all this?

I believe we create our own reality through our perspective.  If you believe that we are living in a higher dimension right now where no dark energies can be present, then that is your reality.  If you believe you have to adhere to certain rules and rituals because the devil waits for you around each corner, then that is your truth.

I never really believed in curses or spells.  Sure, I liked to play witch when I was a little girl and was known to play with candles when I wasn’t supposed to.  I was drawn to ancient Egyptian texts at a young age and marveled at their rites and incantations used in ceremony.  I thought it magical.  I respected their devotion to their faith.  But that, honestly, was about it.

Then began my studies in Native American Shamanism.  I was part of ceremonial practices and could feel Spirit and energy all around me.  It wasn’t a spell.  I wasn’t directing negativity to anyone.  It was beautiful, engaging, entrancing and LIGHT!  The connection made my heart sing.

As I dug deeper into my spiritual learning, I still held a disregard for curses, believing that only those in a state of fear and adhering to a particular belief system could be affected by such things.  I gave this practice no power whatsoever.  Even when my teachers would explain about psychic warfare and how to combat it, I would go to my happy place in my mind.  Those things had nothing to do with me.  They were for other people, not as “light” as me of course, to deal with in their reality.

And then I got my first attachment.  It hit me hard.  I was depleted, mentally, physically, emotionally and definitely spiritually.  I thought I was losing my mind.  I couldn’t concentrate, didn’t want to move and definitely felt like leaving this life would be the best choice I could make.  Thankfully, I turned to a trusted teacher and Shaman for help.  I thought it was something purely physical or perhaps I pulled something in from a client.

As I spoke to my Elder, he connected with my energy.  I could see him going into trance and taking inventory of my field.  Within moments he told me each physical symptom I was having, the negative thoughts I’d been experiencing as well as visions of a man I’d been working with.  He went on further to explain to me that this man had placed a negative entity into my energy field to weaken me and cause me harm.

I was dumbfounded.  Why would anyone want to do that?  I was very Pollyannaish about being of the light.  I thought as long as I did my light work I got a free pass on negativity.

Ummmm….NO!  Even as I write that statement I cringe.  And I laugh.

My wonderful teacher explained to me the importance of boundaries – physical, emotional and energetic.  He also enforced and reiterated the tools I had been taught but not practicing myself in regards to clearing and dealing with negative energies directed to cause and inflict harm.

My mind and heart went into fear.  Was I so weak that I allowed this person to harm me?  What would happen next time?  Why didn’t my guides let me know?  How can I be intuitive and not know this?

I saw the eyes of my teacher begin to sparkle and a smile paint across his compassionate face.  “What did you learn?”  He asked.  “What gifts were you given?  And Honey, if you expect your guides to give you ALL the answers you are barking up the wrong tree.  If they gave you all the answers why would you be here?  You would stay on the other side.”

I sat with that.  Long and hard I sat with that.  I began to realize that life is a learning curve.  Each experience gifts us an opportunity to discover something new.

Doing this work for going on 20 years now, I’ve witnessed and experienced more than my share of light and dark.  I believe we can’t have one without the other – not on this Earth plane.  We come here to experience both and to learn from each.  And then we have a choice.  Which will we allow to be the driving force in our life, good or evil?

Yes, there are curses, spells, negative entities, demons, dark dimensional beings, psychic attacks and other creepy crawlies in existence.  But that doesn’t mean we have to bury our heads in the sand or hide under the covers.  Knowledge, as they say, is power.  There are tools to deter each of these scenarios and just because something is out there doesn’t mean you will experience it.

Every bad thing that happens in your life isn’t because of a curse or some sorcerer conjuring black magic.  Take responsibility for your life, meaning – your BODY, your MIND and your ENERGY. When all are in good working order with proper boundaries in place, no darkness can come through.

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Infinite Possibilities. Infinite Perfection. (A Channeled Message by Arch Angel Jophiel)

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Infinite Possibilities.   Infinite Perfection.

(channeled January 12, 2015)

 

Dear Ones,

Again, it is my distinct pleasure and honor to be with you all this evening, to feel your hearts, to be in the presence of such power, such beauty, and such spirit.  It is a playground, if you will, to me, to see the joy, the peace and the love and the light that exists within you all.

For you are BRAVE, Dear Ones. You are courageous.  You are one of the few in an infinite amount of souls on the other side who said yes, I volunteer to be human.  I volunteer to come down to a place, a plane, this Earth,  where things are dense and I will fit into this vehicle called a physical self and I will forget about home.  I will allow a veil to be placed over my eyes and over my heart.  And I will learn the duality of good and evil.  I will learn the duality of love and hate.

But I will still choose LOVE.

And through choosing LOVE I will recognize my own light.  As I vibrate at that frequency of light that veil will begin to thin.  I will remember home.  I will remember the soul and the strength that I am.  I will remember my truth no matter who tries to dim my light.  No matter who tries to tell me otherwise.

There are many trials and tribulations going on in your world now, going on all around you.   And it is time, Dear Ones, for you to truly see your light and embrace it. So much fear is present in your world right now.  There are those who are evil who are pushing the boundaries and limits of fear for this is what feeds them.  This is what makes them feel powerful.  And they will try to distract you.  They will try to displace your focus and your concern.

Let me tell you Dear Ones, evil does not care what color you are, what religion you are, what your gender, your faith or your sexual preference is.  Evil affects all if we allow it.

Dear Ones, where these is light there can be no darkness.

Do not feed into the fear of those who want power and control.  See them for what they are. Band together as the Lightworkers that you are and create waves of light within this Earth plane and indeed within the universe.  This battle has been going on for eons of time especially since the creation of planet Earth itself.  Time and time again Lightworkers have won and continue to win.  Light Warriors stand up tall against the darkness.  I say these things to heed you, to give you warning.  It is not to place fear within you, but to let you know your strength, and your power and your greatness.  It is time to OWN that greatness, Dear Ones.  It is time to take the leap of faith.  Time to stand within that joy.  To stand within the love that you were created in. To know that you are worthy.  This is your birthright, Dear Ones; to live in a world of harmony and peace and joy; to be safe; to not feel threatened as you walk down a street or worry about where you may travel to.

 You, yourselves, with your minds, and with your hearts can create a world of harmony.  For as you shine your light brightly, as you believe in your light, as you embrace your truth and your soul, you illuminate the path for other souls themselves.

Imagine if you will, someone close to you being in a state of fear, and you illuminating your light so brightly that they remember their own.  It is like a wildfire sparking and continuing on. You are fanning a flame so that others may remember their own truth and their own light.

These children that are upon this planet right now, they are old souls.  Some call them crystalline, some call them indigo, some call them rainbow.  These are Light Warriors, Dear Ones.  Light Warriors who have been around since time began.  They have been illuminating their light.  They have been shining brightly so that others recognize and connect to their own spiritual truths, their own core essence of the soul they are.  These children are here for reasons.  Deep seeded reasons.  If you think of the story of Lemurian crystals and how the people of Lemuria planted these seed crystals all over your planet to be found again, so records and  memories and that history can be rediscovered – I tell you these children carry this same philosophy, have that same essence, that same meaning and reason for being here.

They are activators.  For when you connect with these children, they cause you to remember WHO you are.  They activate the vibration of home within you.  You see their strength.  You see their wisdom.  And you want more of that.  You want to see that within yourself.  They mirror that vibration back to you, so you not only remember the childlike innocence, and playfulness and joy that is truly inside of you, but you remember the light of Home and you recognize it inside of yourself.

Treat these children well, Dear Ones.  For those that are labeled autistic and ADHD are some of the most dimensionally connected humans upon your planet.

It is so important to bond together and release the judgment that you have, not only for others but most definitely about yourselves.  There is a standard in which you criticize yourselves.  When you belittle yourself, or when you compare your successes, or your failures, or your appearance, or your health, or your finances to someone else you are pulling your energy down.  That is not a way to raise your vibration.

If you think of yourself as the God-Self that you are, would God criticize you?  Would Mother/Father God come and tell you that your body is anything less than perfection?  You ARE perfection, Dear Ones, absolutely.  You have a beauty that exceeds any words that I could ever come up with.  That beauty is not just within your physicality, it is within your light, your heart, compassion, your understanding, the way that you treat your fellow man.  THAT is LOVE.  THAT is NOT belittling.  That beauty is not pulling away from your self-esteem or your self-worth.

I would urge each of you to allow yourselves to feel whatever feelings you are encountering at this time.  If that is sadness, allow yourself to cry.  Release it.  Let it go.  If you are grieving, if you are angry, if you are happy, if you are joyful – allow that emotion to express within your physical self.  So much illness is present because those emotions are stuffed into a container somewhere within your physical self.  This manifests as DIS-ease and imbalance within your body.  Wherever these is dis-ease and imbalance your energetic patterning and energetic field cannot flow, cannot flow correctly.  Think of a river that runs very clear, and very fast and circulates. When you cast doubt upon yourself, when you allow this dis-ease or imbalance to manifest within the physical, you create a dam within this river.  Blocks are created within your physical and energetic system that may create a backache, a headache, an earache or even things like cancer, seizures and other diseases within your body – they all have an emotional connection, an energetic connection and a spiritual connection.

It is important to realize when you get an ache or a pain within your body to connect with your heart, Dear Ones.  Ask your heart, why is this happening?  What emotion is this tied to?  Think about where you were when you first started feeling the discomfort.  What was the incident right before the pain came on?  Obviously, sometimes accidents happen and cannot always be avoided.  But the majority of the time, the dis-ease and imbalance within your body has an emotional and energetic connection.

I urge you to work at keeping your systems clear and grounded.  The more that you can do this, the more light you hold within yourself and the more light you anchor here upon this planet.

Together we can shine so brightly.  So brightly.

It was always the intention, as souls first came to this planet, to create Heaven, Home, here on Earth.  There have been times when we have achieved that vibration on this planet.  It is possible once again.  It is possible within your lifetime.  Anything is possible, Dear Ones, if you set your mind, your heart and your soul to achieve it.

Great Expectations…

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Great Expectations

Where are our expectations?  How much time do we use expecting something to happen?  Someone to react in a certain way?  A situation to turn around to our liking?

The very definition of expectation is: the act or state of looking forward or anticipating.

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So is expectation then a positive or a negative force?  That is for each individual to decide on their own.  I, however, got a big dose of discernment on this subject within the last few days.  What I realized about my expectations was that they were not serving my higher purpose.  Allow me to explain.

My daughter, Alexis, turned 17 years old yesterday.  We are in that stage of our mother/daughter relationship where she is fighting to assert her independence and I am struggling to maintain healthy boundaries for her.  Welcome to the life of parenting a teenager!  Yes, I was one of them….once, and a very long, long time ago.

We wanted to do something special for Alexis and enlisted one of her good friends to plan a surprise party for her.  Lots of planning, sneaking and shopping went into getting all the details just right for the big surprise.  We all waited in anticipation for Alexis to walk through the door of the clubhouse so we could rush out and welcome her into her special celebration.  She was surprised, no doubt, and went around the room hugging each of her friends and thanking them for being there.  I waited for my turn, so happy that we’d pulled off the big secret, which was my idea after all.

Alexis came over to where I was and I waited for the biggest mommy/daughter hug ever.  Instead, what I got was, “Are you staying?”

I was crushed!  I had put so much time and effort into all this.  How selfish she was!  Couldn’t she understand?  I was hurt in the very place in my heart that had motivated me to create such an experience for her.  I foolishly mumbled something to her about what a way to say thank you and drifted back into the sidelines inside the kitchen, which is where I planned to stay for the majority of the evening anyway.

I began to let these feelings stew inside me, not realizing they were triggering so much more than just a simple remark.  All those doubts, non-acceptance, and unworthiness began to bubble up to the surface.  So much emotion came forward.  When I reached a quiet time, within the following days, I asked for assistance from my guides.

“What did you honestly expect?  Did you expect a 17-year-old girl to put your feelings first?  You know she appreciated it.  For her to show you accolades in front of her friends is not her personality style.  You know this.  Why allow your feelings to be hurt over something that is not out of the norm?

What was your motivation in creating this evening for her?  Was it with the intention that you would be awarded a prize?  Did you want acknowledgement from her and her circle of friends as to what a wonderful mother you are?  If this is the case, then it is indeed time you look closely at your actions, Dear One.  I feel that you did this to make your daughter happy, plain and simple.  It was to alleviate some of the sadness that has come up recently and the party was to make her feel special and surround her with friends.  Was that not your motivation?  And did you not succeed?  Could you see she was having a wonderful time?”

Those words sunk in deep.  Wow….why was I reacting so strongly to this?

“You react in this fashion, my dear, because you expect from others all those things you want to feel for yourself.  When instead, you can really only place expectations on yourself and no one else.  To anticipate how another person will react is in reality trying to control the outcome of a situation.  Can you see this?  And indeed, in many instances expectation can be a form of self sabotage.  For if the person or situation does not meet your expectation, then you can justify all those false beliefs and fears that hide away in the recesses of your ego mind.  This is why all those other feelings you’ve been experiencing have come to the surface.”

This all made so much sense to me.  It was as if a light bulb suddenly clicked on.

“You cannot set an intention for someone else.  You can only control yourself and your own circumstance.  This is not to say that you should allow anyone to treat you with disrespect, for that is something entirely different – that is setting a boundary of what you will and will not accept.  Your expectations should only be directed at yourself and how you intend to act, feel and react.  Look at your motivations and base them solely on your own behaviors and intentions.  Your intention in this instance was to make a wonderful evening for your darling daughter.  And this came to fruition, did it not?  If you base your actions in expectation of how someone else will react or treat you, then your intention is not coming from the highest and purest vibration.  Many times, it is easy to fall into the trap and pattern of always wanting something in return.  But to merely accept your actions and intentions as positive and release the reaction  and expectation of others is to truly be in a place of peace and balance.  You do not require anyone’s approval but your own.

See this only as the lesson that it is.  Feel not failure or judgment about it.  You’ve learned and you’ve grown.  This is was all experiences bring to your life.  It is all good.”

With those words I was left with an incredible feeling of lightness within my heart.  It felt literally like a weight had been taken from my body.  The heaviness of confusion and self-criticism left my being.  I was in a state of peace.

I’ve learned to let go of the expectation of what and how I think other people in my life should react to my own actions.  This is a freedom I have not felt before, except perhaps when I was a very small child.  It is a place of adaptation and acceptance.  It is a freedom to be in the flow of life moment to moment.

Great expectations I only place upon myself and in doing so I receive the greatest gift of all.

Did You Want Fries With That ???

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Did You Want Fries With That ???

 

I recently received a call from a potential client.  I answered my business phone and the following conversation ensued:

Client:  “I would like to book a fifteen minute session.”

Me:  “Great.  What type of session are you interested in?”

Client:  “I want to know about each of my past lives, the name of my soul mate, where he is, how I can turn my health around and what I can do about my career.”

Me:  “Did you want fries with that?”

Client:  silence…click

Now, to know me is to know my inability to hold back on sarcasm, but it’s also to know that when asked to do the impossible I will speak the truth about it.  In this case, I was put off by the woman’s expectation that I could hand her all this information in a mere 15 minutes.  It was as if she were ordering her lunch off a menu.

This is what I consider, “drive-thru mentality.”

We, as a society, have become accustomed to instantaneous gratification.  You want an answer?  Go to the internet.  You want entertainment?  Turn on the tv.  You want healing?  Take a pill.  You want a hot meal in 10 minutes or less?  Go to the drive thru.

 I am not in judgment of this woman, who I am sure will not call me back (don’t have to be psychic to figure that out!).  I am, however in observation of the actions and expectations we can have that are not exactly healthy.  It is very easy to put responsibility onto other people for figuring out our lives, our problems, our health issues and our futures.  In fact, it is much EASIER to put off that responsibility and not OWN it.  If we claim it, then we are accountable for our actions and our reactions.  I am blessed that I AM responsible for the interactions I have with clients, and this was one that I knew would not be simpatico!

It makes me wonder, though, how often do we give our power away?  When we seek advice from professionals, are we taking everything they have to offer at face value?  Or do we step back and ponder what of this resonates with us?  What can we keep and what can we leave for someone else?

 I am a firm believer in consulting the advice of others, for I know I am far from an expert in many things.  But if something doesn’t set right with me, I prefer to let it go.  As I let it go, I take responsibility for my choice, my decision, and my path.  How easy is it to fall into the pattern of allowing others to make those decisions for you?  Think about it…when was the last time you heard the excuse:

“Well, my doctor said it would help.  It doesn’t really work, but I’m still taking it.”

“I know it’s not good for me, but….”

“The infomercial told me I’d lose all the weight if I just did this.”

“The credit card company let me increase my balance, so…”

“I know I shouldn’t but he told me he was lonely…”

How could all of these situations changed, if the person going through it had sat with the issue and really asked guidance if it was right for them?  When you tap into Spirit you are tapping into your power.  You are activating your soul and not reacting within the physical.

Spirit is a connection that is with you 24/7, lifetime after lifetime.  It’s open all day and all night and you never have to worry if the energy is going to be too hot, or too cold.  It’s always just right.  There is no line to wait in, no dollar menu and you will never have your order screwed up.  Whatever you ask for will come through, just make sure your order is clear and concise.  And Spirit always, without a doubt, has the BEST happy meals.  You don’t even have to be a kid to enjoy them.

I realize my flip response to this woman may not have been what many consider the “right” way to handle things, but it was my way to handle the situation and it worked for me.  And deep down, I know it got my point across in a light hearted way as opposed to a ten minute conversation as to why what she was asking was impossible.  Sometimes, laughter and humor is the best option and a wonderful teaching tool.

Super Size that one…. 🙂

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I am also THRILLED to announce that I am one of five finalists in the About.com Reader’s Choice Awards for Favorite Angel Intuitive.

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The winner is decided by public voting.  You can vote once a day up to and including March 19th.  Please click HERE to cast your vote.  I appreciate your support and am very excited to be a part of this incredible contest.  So honored and grateful for the nomination.

Entitlement – Is it Really All About You?

 

 

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What constitutes entitlement?

The very essence of the word as described in Encarta Dictionary means: grant somebody right: to give somebody the right to have or to do something.

So, based on this definition, is entitlement then a gift by nature?  It is in the act of giving, is it not?  Yet, so many people feel they have the right to CLAIM entitlement; they have the RIGHT to this, and they have the RIGHT to that.  How defiant they become when they are not getting what they feel is rightfully theirs.

But when do those rights become wrongs?

When you step over the free will of another’s choice – this has nothing to do with entitlement.  This has to do with selfishness.  When we view the world as to what is “owed” us, it is a mirror reflection of the lack and nothingness that resides inside.  It screams to hollow feeling within; a void, a hole that can never be filled completely by any one thing or any one emotion.

I have often watched the interaction and dance others do with the concept of entitlement.  It is very prevalent within family systems.  I counsel many clients regarding their conceived notions of what family owes them.  No one can change the past.  We can choose to relive it, revisit it, dwell on it, but never, ever can it be changed.  The only power we have over change is within ourselves.  We have the ability to change our perception, our behavior and our feelings.  That is it, plain and simple.  To hold some invisible yardstick to your experience as a child, citing checks and balances that you are due based on your past, is an equation that will never be complete.  How can you formulate an exchange like this in the first place?  Because you did this to me, then you owe me x, y, and z…???  Really ?

We are all entitled to love.  God has gifted us with that capacity.  We can choose to act through love, or to carry two ton chips on our shoulders as we strive for the rest of the world to see how much we deserve that love.

We have no rights when it comes to infringing upon another’s choices.  We have no entitlement in another’s life because of relation, position or role.  Entitlement is to be given, it is not to be battled over.

The next time you feel your mind wondering over what the world owes you, ask yourself, what have you given?  Have you acted out of love, or are your actions based on old wounds of the past that you’ve allowed to fester?

When actions stem only from love, entitlement melts away.  Hearts are opened, judgment dissolves and miracles are received.