Infinite Possibilities. Infinite Perfection. (A Channeled Message by Arch Angel Jophiel)

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Infinite Possibilities.   Infinite Perfection.

(channeled January 12, 2015)

 

Dear Ones,

Again, it is my distinct pleasure and honor to be with you all this evening, to feel your hearts, to be in the presence of such power, such beauty, and such spirit.  It is a playground, if you will, to me, to see the joy, the peace and the love and the light that exists within you all.

For you are BRAVE, Dear Ones. You are courageous.  You are one of the few in an infinite amount of souls on the other side who said yes, I volunteer to be human.  I volunteer to come down to a place, a plane, this Earth,  where things are dense and I will fit into this vehicle called a physical self and I will forget about home.  I will allow a veil to be placed over my eyes and over my heart.  And I will learn the duality of good and evil.  I will learn the duality of love and hate.

But I will still choose LOVE.

And through choosing LOVE I will recognize my own light.  As I vibrate at that frequency of light that veil will begin to thin.  I will remember home.  I will remember the soul and the strength that I am.  I will remember my truth no matter who tries to dim my light.  No matter who tries to tell me otherwise.

There are many trials and tribulations going on in your world now, going on all around you.   And it is time, Dear Ones, for you to truly see your light and embrace it. So much fear is present in your world right now.  There are those who are evil who are pushing the boundaries and limits of fear for this is what feeds them.  This is what makes them feel powerful.  And they will try to distract you.  They will try to displace your focus and your concern.

Let me tell you Dear Ones, evil does not care what color you are, what religion you are, what your gender, your faith or your sexual preference is.  Evil affects all if we allow it.

Dear Ones, where these is light there can be no darkness.

Do not feed into the fear of those who want power and control.  See them for what they are. Band together as the Lightworkers that you are and create waves of light within this Earth plane and indeed within the universe.  This battle has been going on for eons of time especially since the creation of planet Earth itself.  Time and time again Lightworkers have won and continue to win.  Light Warriors stand up tall against the darkness.  I say these things to heed you, to give you warning.  It is not to place fear within you, but to let you know your strength, and your power and your greatness.  It is time to OWN that greatness, Dear Ones.  It is time to take the leap of faith.  Time to stand within that joy.  To stand within the love that you were created in. To know that you are worthy.  This is your birthright, Dear Ones; to live in a world of harmony and peace and joy; to be safe; to not feel threatened as you walk down a street or worry about where you may travel to.

 You, yourselves, with your minds, and with your hearts can create a world of harmony.  For as you shine your light brightly, as you believe in your light, as you embrace your truth and your soul, you illuminate the path for other souls themselves.

Imagine if you will, someone close to you being in a state of fear, and you illuminating your light so brightly that they remember their own.  It is like a wildfire sparking and continuing on. You are fanning a flame so that others may remember their own truth and their own light.

These children that are upon this planet right now, they are old souls.  Some call them crystalline, some call them indigo, some call them rainbow.  These are Light Warriors, Dear Ones.  Light Warriors who have been around since time began.  They have been illuminating their light.  They have been shining brightly so that others recognize and connect to their own spiritual truths, their own core essence of the soul they are.  These children are here for reasons.  Deep seeded reasons.  If you think of the story of Lemurian crystals and how the people of Lemuria planted these seed crystals all over your planet to be found again, so records and  memories and that history can be rediscovered – I tell you these children carry this same philosophy, have that same essence, that same meaning and reason for being here.

They are activators.  For when you connect with these children, they cause you to remember WHO you are.  They activate the vibration of home within you.  You see their strength.  You see their wisdom.  And you want more of that.  You want to see that within yourself.  They mirror that vibration back to you, so you not only remember the childlike innocence, and playfulness and joy that is truly inside of you, but you remember the light of Home and you recognize it inside of yourself.

Treat these children well, Dear Ones.  For those that are labeled autistic and ADHD are some of the most dimensionally connected humans upon your planet.

It is so important to bond together and release the judgment that you have, not only for others but most definitely about yourselves.  There is a standard in which you criticize yourselves.  When you belittle yourself, or when you compare your successes, or your failures, or your appearance, or your health, or your finances to someone else you are pulling your energy down.  That is not a way to raise your vibration.

If you think of yourself as the God-Self that you are, would God criticize you?  Would Mother/Father God come and tell you that your body is anything less than perfection?  You ARE perfection, Dear Ones, absolutely.  You have a beauty that exceeds any words that I could ever come up with.  That beauty is not just within your physicality, it is within your light, your heart, compassion, your understanding, the way that you treat your fellow man.  THAT is LOVE.  THAT is NOT belittling.  That beauty is not pulling away from your self-esteem or your self-worth.

I would urge each of you to allow yourselves to feel whatever feelings you are encountering at this time.  If that is sadness, allow yourself to cry.  Release it.  Let it go.  If you are grieving, if you are angry, if you are happy, if you are joyful – allow that emotion to express within your physical self.  So much illness is present because those emotions are stuffed into a container somewhere within your physical self.  This manifests as DIS-ease and imbalance within your body.  Wherever these is dis-ease and imbalance your energetic patterning and energetic field cannot flow, cannot flow correctly.  Think of a river that runs very clear, and very fast and circulates. When you cast doubt upon yourself, when you allow this dis-ease or imbalance to manifest within the physical, you create a dam within this river.  Blocks are created within your physical and energetic system that may create a backache, a headache, an earache or even things like cancer, seizures and other diseases within your body – they all have an emotional connection, an energetic connection and a spiritual connection.

It is important to realize when you get an ache or a pain within your body to connect with your heart, Dear Ones.  Ask your heart, why is this happening?  What emotion is this tied to?  Think about where you were when you first started feeling the discomfort.  What was the incident right before the pain came on?  Obviously, sometimes accidents happen and cannot always be avoided.  But the majority of the time, the dis-ease and imbalance within your body has an emotional and energetic connection.

I urge you to work at keeping your systems clear and grounded.  The more that you can do this, the more light you hold within yourself and the more light you anchor here upon this planet.

Together we can shine so brightly.  So brightly.

It was always the intention, as souls first came to this planet, to create Heaven, Home, here on Earth.  There have been times when we have achieved that vibration on this planet.  It is possible once again.  It is possible within your lifetime.  Anything is possible, Dear Ones, if you set your mind, your heart and your soul to achieve it.

2014 , The Year of Power – Channeled Message from the Arch Angel Jophiel

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2014, The Year of Power

Channeled Message from the Arch Angel Jophiel

The following is a transcript from a channeling I did on January 10th, 2014 in Las Vegas at Enchanted Forest Reiki.  The room was full of amazing people and energy.  As I connected to the Arch Angel Jophiel, this beautiful message about the upcoming year came through:

 

Dear Ones,

It is indeed a great honor and a great blessing to be with you this evening.  This start of a miraculous new year.  And I use the term miraculous not lightly, for there are many miracles in store for each and every one of you.  The past year has been one of turbulence for so many.  It has been a way of weeding out what has not worked.  Many of you have gone through trauma, through turmoil, through your relationships, through your businesses, your careers, your finances.  You have said goodbye to those you loved so dearly and to belief systems and truths that you held so closely to your heart.  This has been a way for you to realize what no longer serves you.  Not to cause you distress or sadness or grief, but to figure out what you really embrace as your truth.  For were you not to weed out these different things that no longer worked for you, you would not know your heart.  You would not know the strength of your soul, of your spirit.  You would not be closer to understanding your mission and purpose for this lifetime.  This is a plane of duality, Dear Ones.  You learn not only by the light, but you learn by the lower vibrations as well.  Those of grief, of sadness, of loss, of negativity.  These are all valuable lessons and you each have chosen to be here on this plane of duality and experience all of these different emotions, all of these different lessons, because you have that strength within; because you are that light within.  Not every soul comes down from Home and plays human, Dear Ones, only the strongest do.  And though you may ask yourselves, “What did I sign up for?”  Inside, in your heart, in that space where the spark of Source and Creator resides, you know full well why you signed up for this.  You know your purpose.  You know your strength.

Each and every one of you come to the lesson of light as you chose to inhabit this physical form.  You choose your struggles.  You choose the ones that you connect with around you. Though seemingly, it may seem not as if you made these choices and yet you have.  For even within the greatest tragedies and traumas come the most valuable lessons and gifts.  This is the year where thinking shifts more to seeing the gift in all things than seeing simply the trauma and the tragedy.  This is the year where perception changes and you truly embrace that higher view of why you’re here.  And when those things come up and when you face those catastrophes and when you face that chaos, you will have the wherewithal to step back. Pull back from the emotion of it, take a deep breath and center, and realize this is merely an experience.  This is a phase.  This is an opportunity.  This is a lesson.  This catastrophe, this trauma, this turmoil does not define who I am.  It is merely an experience.  And as you each know, each experience to you is a drop in the vast ocean.  For you are all souls having a human experience.  This is not your first dance upon this planet, Dear Ones.  You have incarnated many times.  You have learned many lessons before and have various missions and purposes which you have fulfilled.

 Because of the heightened vibration and energy both on this planet and within humanity as a species, you will connect to a greater degree to your soul and its totality.  So when you begin hearing the voices seemingly coming from nowhere, seeing the shadows out of your peripheral vision, having visions of your own or very vivid dreams that you can’t seem to explain, realize that these are all pieces of you.  These are different aspects of your soul.

And as you come into this time of 2014, this is the time where you merge with your soul and all its different pieces; all its different aspects and parallels that reside in different dimensions.  It is a choice.  You can choose to actually feel and sense all of your different parallels, or you can choose to just have the awareness. But either way as your vibration raises, those indications from all of your other senses you’ll be feeling it, you’ll be smelling it, you’ll be seeing it, you’ll be tasting it, you’ll be knowing it.  So know that these changes, and many of you have already felt them; you’re either feeling them now or they’re very closely on their way–they are here to aid you.  They are not here to cause you further distress.  They are here to be used as a tool.

If I were to give you an analogy of the human heart, there are many different vessels within a human heart.  There are many different atriums within a human heart.  You are going from an aspect of merely operating on one valve in a heart and to this year using it full force.  Think of the possibilities, Dear Ones.  Think of the amazement that lies ahead of you.  The places of joy that you will reach.  The different things that you will be able to sense and feel and manifest.  And because your vibration is higher, because the frequency upon this planet is higher, your manifestation skills and abilities are also heightened.  Be very mindful of your thoughts, Dear Ones.  For when you wake up in the morning and you look at yourself in the mirror if you say you are poor you are indeed poor.  If you say you are unhealthy, you are indeed unhealthy and that affirmation is a command to the universe and in a frequency such that you are vibrating at, it becomes your reality in an instant.

Be kind to yourself.  Treat yourself with the compassion that you treat others with.  I do not understand when I look, and I feel, and I sense every single one of you how you could see anything other than perfection.  You are created as a god.  You are created as the spark of Source.  How could you not see that as beauty and light and wonderment?  That is all I see and sense in this room.  And if you take but one thing home with you tonight, I pray you take that with you.  That you are indeed a spark of Source.  You are indeed a bright light worthy of all the love in existence in the entire universe.  We on the other side watch you in wonderment.  We watch how you are these beautiful vast beings of light, these amazing souls that you are, and how you fit into a very tiny, tiny vessel.  It is amazing to us how you pull a veil over your eyes because you agreed to and that you forget the wonderment of Home.  You forget your vitality.  You forget your ability and your power and your light.

It is as if there is a door blocking you from your own connection to your soul.  And I ask you to open that door.  Don’t just put a foot in.  Open it wide open.  Allow that light to fill you.  For there are portals, there are vortexes opening, allowing that energy to rush through on this earth plane right now.  So many things–if you listen to your media, if you listen and you watch your TV programs or your newspapers or your internet–are telling you how terrible the world is around you.  And there are reasons for things failing right now.  It’s because the system never worked in the first place.  It’s because you are awakening.  You are remembering your power, your strength, and your light.  And you are putting that firm boundary on the ground and saying, “No more.”  How wonderful is that?  And again I remind you to look for the gift in each lesson as these different programs and these different systems will be in upheaval.  And if you were merely to look at it with your analytical mind and your logical thinking you would go into fear.  But if you step back and you merge with that heart space, take the deep breath, and call all of your soul in, you will realize the gift.  You will see the lesson and you will be able to step away from the split second firing of fear that is such a human emotion.  This is the year of taking back your power, of being within your power—calling it in to its full degree.

There’s so much light ahead of you.  So much healing will occur this year, both physically, mentally, spiritually.  And as each of you step forward and receive this healing and this understanding, you create that space for everyone around you.  You create that space for Mother Earth herself and what a beautiful gift to give–believing enough in yourself to shine your own light so that you affect the lives of others.  Isn’t that why you’re all here?  Wasn’t that the agreement on the other side before you decided to play human? You were going to do the best job you could possibly do, not just move through the motions, but to truly shine.

The energetics that are set for this year are very reminiscent of the times of Lemuria.  The times when we all worked together side by side–angels, masters, humans, souls, spirits, light beings, animals, minerals.  We all worked for the greatest good of all.  The ego didn’t come into play.  We opened up our hearts to connect with one another to be a supportive force for each other.  To join and merge our own light and our power together.  To assist one another, hand in hand, side by side, heart to heart.  The energy frequencies are so similar to those of Lemuria.  Other galaxies within our universe are watching, are assisting, are adding their light, are adding their love and their power and their intention to help and assist you to manifest something wonderful.

You’ve noticed how your technology has changed really within the last few years.  How things seemingly can happen in a split second of time and how time itself has changed.  This all has to do with your perception, how your physicality takes in this energy, how your mind and your brain function.  I would ask you also to please listen to your bodies for they are becoming attuned to this energy.  As they attune to this energy there will be some things to work out.  Just as in the past year you have gone through different ways like a roller coaster ride—things that worked for you, things that didn’t work for you, releasing things from your energetic form, releasing things from your relationships–now you will find that your physical self also has to integrate that higher vibration.  You might find physical symptoms that seemingly come from nowhere, that you can’t explain, and that a doctor cannot explain.  Feel your own bodies.  See where those blocks reside.  If you’re getting a physical reaction there is an emotional and a spiritual reason for that.  Go into quiet time.  Connect with your heart.  Ask for your guidance, your higher realms, your angels, your guides to be around you and offer you assistance.  Connect with the Earth for she has always been there to heal you and to help you and to assist you.

This is also a very wondrous time of bringing forth the divine feminine to a higher frequency and a higher level than it has been on this planet in centuries.  The divine feminine, which resides in all of you, both male and female, is about nurturing.   It’s about compassion, but it is also about beginning.  It is also about rebirth.  It is also about power and protection.  This will also be very prevalent in the coming year. ….

Thank you all for coming here this evening.  We are all gathered here by choice, not by coincidence.  The energies that each of you bring have created this space.  The light that each of you shines has created this beautiful experience and I am blessed and honored to be a part of it.  Thank you so much.  And so it is.

The Magic Within You ~Channeled Message

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I was guided to channel a message last Friday night at a Spiritual Circle.  Here is what came through:

Dear Ones,

It is a grateful blessing to all of us who gather here with you this night, this moment.  For indeed there are many of us.  We have waited in anticipation for this moment, for you to call us in.

 

We are a collective energy from the other side.  Just as all of you are collective energies in your own right, you are all part of the All That Is.  Each of your hearts connects with one another.  Each of your souls connects with one another, just as you connect with us. We are each the same.  And isn’t that beautiful?  And isn’t that amazing?  And isn’t that magic?

 

Magic-what an interesting term. For many things can be called and described as magic: love, light, manifestation, abundance.  There are so many things that fall into this category.  The thrill and excitement of anticipation is quite magical in itself.  Each of you is created with the vibration of magic, for magic is in creation itself.  It is that Spark of Mother/Father God that resides inside your heart that speaks to you, that is the light itself in which you were created.  Its magic, and Dear Ones, that is you. You are a beautiful, magical being of light.  And it is only when you lose your way that you begin to doubt that fact.  It is only when you play into the ego-mind, that cynicism, that doubt, that you cloud your judgment of the magic that is within.

 

Let us remind you now of that beautiful spark of light within you.  Take a deep breath, Dear Ones, connect with that Spark of light inside you and allow it to glow.  Visualize what that is inside of you.  Give it a name, a color, a vibration, a frequency, a feeling, a sound – it doesn’t matter.  Just connect with it, for that is the magical part of you that is inside and also exists inside everyone else in existence. 

 

As you connect with this magical part of yourself, this Spark of light that is you, it creates a doorway for you to connect with that same Spark of light within others.  It is much like a web of light. It is much like the stars within the galaxy, how they connect through constellations, how they create different patterns within the night’s sky.  So being, for you as well connect with your own light, with your own frequencies, with your own magic.

 

Magic is very powerful, Dear Ones.  It is not about trickery.  It is not about illusion.  It is about truth.  It is about the truth of who you are as a soul.  You are not merely a human being.  You are a soul playing the role of human in this very moment and in the past as well.  It is magical indeed, for you come into this world seemingly forgetting your connection and your spark.  But through your experience, through your life as a human you come into different realizations and remembrances about home, about that Spark inside you, about the magic.  And you begin to remember your truth.  And you begin to connect with your soul, to know who you truly are, to feel your own power, and to realize that you are never alone. 

 

You are not small, Dear Ones.  You are greatness.  You are light itself.  And indeed, isn’t that magical as well?  As you go about your day and the self-talk comes into your mind of doubt, of worry and stress, we urge you to step back, take a deep breath; connect with that Spark that is inside that is you.  Remember the magic that you are and how you were created, how you constantly are in every moment.  It is time to wake up from the dream, Dear Ones.  It is time to own your power.  It is time, once again, to practice the magic that is you.  For as you stand in your own light, you spread this light to others.  And that, indeed, is magic as well. 

 

Remember who you are.  Trust and know that in every moment there is light all around you.  Each and every one of you is connected to all of us.  We are each the same.  We each vibrate at the same frequency of light that resides inside that spark that is you.  You are the all that is.  You are Mother/Father God, for this is how you are created and this is how you will always be.  Trust in that, Dear Ones, and don’t be afraid to practice the magic that is you. 

 

It has been a great joy coming through to you this night.   And know that we believe in your magic. 

 

And so it is.  ~*~

 

To hear the recorded version of this channeled message, visit http://www.blogtalkradio.com/intuitiveangels/2013/10/15/intuitive-angels–channeled-message–love-magic or catch my podcast on I-Tunes at  https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/intuitive-angels-channeled/id722287678?i=169204784&mt=2

 

 

Does Time Really Heal All Wounds ?

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Does Time Really Heal All Wounds ?

This coming Sunday will mark the one year anniversary of the passing of my father, Dale Wolfe, Sr.  As the approach of this day has loomed seemingly over my head since the start of this month, it has brought much reflection to my life.  Once the calendar flipped over to the month of June, I set a conscious intention to make July as busy as possible so that I would be distracted and would not have time to feel the sadness that still knocks me to my knees at times.  There is a hole in my heart that no one else can fill.  And even though I know Dad’s spirit is around me, and seen quite often by my son, it is not the same.  That human being that I am is still a very sense oriented person.  I want to hold Dad’s hand again.  I want to feel his strong arms around me.  I want to see those hazel eyes twinkle and hear that amazing laugh.  I want and I want, but it doesn’t seem to change things.

In the higher perspective, I have the conscious awareness that it was Dad’s “time” to go.  He was ready to let go of his physical form and no longer be in pain.  Cancer is a terrible illness and involves so much on an energetic level I couldn’t even explain it in words.  If I could perhaps set off a nuclear bomb that’s radiation infects everything within it’s path for miles and miles of existence, it might begin to scratch the surface of what this horrid disease does to a person.  I am forever grateful that my dear Father no longer feels this pain or struggle within himself.

It’s been a long year without him.  Milestones and tragedies have occurred in the family.  We lost my father in law, George, six months after Dad passed, to cancer as well.  Dad’s spirit was there at the hospital as I assisted George in his transition, guiding me and supporting me every step of the way.  When I had to be strong for my husband and our family, Dad was there lending his hand and his strength to me once more.  So often I am drawn to pick up the phone and call him to share something that’s happened with my kids or ask for one of his pearls of wisdom, and then I realize that I can’t do that anymore.  But now he knows without me even saying the words.  I find myself singing the songs we liked to sing or watching the westerns we would watch together.  Recently when I went to the theater to see a new western, I could feel Dad right there next to me, talking to me about how much the Lone Ranger had changed since he used to see it.

There is much that saddens me, but in so many ways I am forever thankful for the new connection that Dad and I share.  I truly feel he is the one person in the whole wide world that ever really understood me and never judged me.  To say this man loved me unconditionally would be an understatement.  He didn’t always understand what I did, or agree with my belief systems, but he accepted me.

I hadn’t realized until just recently how much guilt I was holding onto in regards to how Dad passed.  Me, being so enlightened and all (right!) just assumed I aligned with that higher understanding of each soul choosing their exit point and transitioning when it was there chosen time.  Someone should have explained that to my unconscious and conscious mind, because in the depths of those realms laid a heavy weight of false belief thinking I could have done something different to prevent his passing and the accident that ultimately caused his death.  That little girl inside me that he’d protected and safeguarded my whole life was questioning how on earth I could not do the same for my beloved father.  Why had I failed him?  How could I fail him?

Just writing those words takes the air out of my lungs.

My father was the first to step forward upon this realization and ask to assist in helping me clear that energy.  He reassured me that it was nothing I did or did not do.  He wasn’t living a life he wanted to live anymore and he was through with hospitals, chemo treatments and being poked and prodded.  He couldn’t be the man he wanted to be and so he chose to move into a different vibration that allowed him the freedom to watch over his family.  This was his solution, he said, this was his soul-ution.  As he spoke to me a clarity came over my mind and my body.  I felt a peace I hadn’t felt in some time move through me.

So where is the gift in all this?  Of course it is that my father is no longer in pain and as the eternal soul that he is, he is still present in my life.  But is there more that I am to learn from this?  Was there something else?  I posed these questions to my Dad this morning as I enjoyed the few moments of quiet time I had.  When I looked back at the last few years in my life and the losses I’ve experienced on a personal level – two very close friends and the two fathers in my life – as well as the many transitions I’ve assisted with, I felt like there was more I was supposed to understand.

So many people turn to you to bring through messages from their loved ones who have passed because they are in such a deep state of grief, my father said.  What if you could teach them to move through that grief by connecting with their loved ones from the other side?  The healing can go hand in hand, just as it has worked for you.  Think of the times I’ve asked you to give me your pain so that I could assist you.  Think of the energy, prayer and emotional techniques you’ve used over the last year and what has helped you.  What if you could teach others this very same thing?  Moving through the emotions, connecting to their loved ones and having Angelic assistance to boot!  Sounds like a great plan to me!

Yep, Dad.  It sounds like a great plan to me too.  Looks like there is another gift here to be found.  I think I’ve got a lot of writing to do and a big project in the works now.  Good thing I’ve got help with this one!

Does times heal all wounds?  I think the void that is created when we lose a loved one through death is a deep wound.  But as with all wounds, the healing begins when we find the right remedy.  Perhaps the best soul-ution for that is filling the void with the love we feel for those that have passed and making the conscious choice to connect with them.

I love you, Daddy.  Thanks for helping me to keep moving forward, one foot in front of the other.

What I Didn’t Want to See…

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What I Didn’t Want to See…

Sensing Spirits and Angels can be absolutely incredible!  Being able to connect people with their loved ones on the other side is also very rewarding and healing.  Some of what I see and sense is not comfortable, and has taken some getting used to.  Some of it I will never understand and there are those instances when I will put up the barrier and down right demand that I not come into connection with certain energies.

Here’s a recent experience I’ve been dealing with over the last few days:

I was in the shower (and water is a great conductor of energy, btw, so some of our greatest visions and connections will happen around water) and a flash of a scene played out in my head. I saw a young man I connected with years ago. His face was vivid and clear. In the next instance I saw him on the floor, looking like he was passed out. Then I saw his soul leave his body. All this happened in a matter of moments. I hadn’t seen him in years. I was not close to him, had no way of contacting him, so I brushed it off. Just a weird flash of energy, I thought. Nothing more, nothing less.

Well that’s what I thought….until days later I heard through the grapevine that this man had died. He had died a sudden death, collapsing and being found hours later. The news saddened me to my core. It’s not that I felt responsible, for I know there was no way of me preventing this. I was sad because he was so young and such a beautiful soul with an amazing heart. The kind of guy that would literally give you the shirt off his back. I couldn’t figure out why I had the premonition. I don’t want premonitions. They make me feel helpless. It’s one thing to question if a certain event will happen and it’s another to be handed the information, whether you want it or not.

Years ago, when I had my first premonition, I was about 6 or 7 years old and I saw the death of a family member before it happened. That continued, and with family members I seemed to be accepting of it. Then ten or twelve years ago, I was sitting at my computer and I was shown a very intense scene – a father and son were washed away by a flash flood. I saw their bodies under the overpass, I got the name of the street. I felt the pain of their last breaths, the overwhelm of the Dad knowing he couldn’t save his son, the pressure as their lungs filled with water. I wrote the vision down and the next day looked up the street name. It happened to be in a town where a father and son were missing. They later found the bodies near the overpass of that street.

I was mad! Why on Earth would God give me this information if there was nothing I could do? I didn’t want to feel people’s deaths…I didn’t want to experience their pain. What was I going to do, call up a police department in Tim Buck Two and say oh, by the way, I was having a vision and this is what I saw? Who would believe me? Even I was second guessing my sanity.

A short time later I was asked to tap into a missing child’s case.  A friend has asked for my input.  I took the young girl’s photo and connected with her energy.  I saw her in an open field and she was playing.  Then I saw a man approach her.  He lured her to his car where he did terrible things to her and later killed the child.  I stopped the scene was it was playing out.  It knocked me off kilter.  I didn’t want to see this, didn’t want to feel it, and couldn’t separate my emotions from connecting with the evil coming from the man and the helplessness of the child.  It made me physically ill.  I threw up.  I had an anxiety attack.  It was more than my soul could bare.

I decided to make a pact with God, my guides and my Angels.  I had the big pow-wow.  I outlined what I was willing to do to be of service – energy work, shamanic travel, reading, connecting with the other side to bring through information to assist others.  I told them I would slay the demons if need be and remove dark entities from people, homes and spaces.  But what I would NOT do was allow my abilities to be used to see into situations I could offer no help or assistance.  I did not want to see things in the future that were beyond my control and I did not want to be involved in murder cases or violence against children.  I had to set my clear boundaries of what felt right for me.

Since that time, I’ve never had an issue.  One big pow-wow, the boundaries were set and I thought it was all good, at least up until a few days ago.  Why was I getting this information?  I wasn’t asking for it, that’s for sure.

So tonight, I sat down with Arch Angel Michael.  I wanted answers.  I wanted to know why our “deal” was broken.  What was the greater lesson here, cause all I was feeling was sadness and helplessness.

Arch Angel Michael’s response:

Dear One,

Breathe deeply, for I know you are upset.  This has rocked you to your core.  It makes no logical sense so allow me to show you the light within the situation.

When you first connected with this man, you saw his light.  You felt his heart.  You saw the passion for life within him and within the work he brought to this world.  You experienced his greatness and this energy was imprinted in your mind.  Though you had no personal connection with him, he impacted your thoughts on life, on humanity and on the light that can exist within a human form.  You literally came into contact with his soul that day.  You made that strong of a connection with him.

When he left this world, you felt that as well.  The days that came before his exit point, as a soul he was pondering his demise, going over the issues of being complete with his lesson and path.  You FELT THIS.  You felt this soul that touched your life contemplating his death.  It was merely an awareness coming into your consciousness.  It was nothing more and nothing less.  Just as we are all one, part of the All That Is, you felt the decision in the works for him to leave his human body and step completely into the light.  You sensed the change in energy and vibration.  Do not take this as a bad thing.  It is not negative.  Look at the amazing gift this man gave you – the ability to see a soul, to feel a heart, and to see light within motion.

Do not grieve the loss or the suddenness of the experience.  Celebrate the way one soul touched another.  Celebrate the realization and confirmation once again that the soul is eternal.

We are all one in the same.  We are of the same light, created with the same unconditional love.  Understand that as a soul you have the opportunity to touch the lives of others just as this man has touched yours.  He impacted you because you chose to be open to the experience.  You chose to open your heart and your eyes to truly see him in his entirety.  How could that be anything less than a miracle?

Allow yourself to see the light in this, my Dear.  Let go of the false belief that this was a bad experience.

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Well, put in that perspective, how could I view this as anything less than a gift?

We really don’t know the impact we have on others.  I spent less than a few hours time with this man, and yet he’s brought a profound awareness into my life.  Think of how you impact others.  When we take the time to be aligned with who we really are, we shine our brightest.

I am grateful to have connected with such a beautiful spirit.  He is much loved and forever imprinted upon my heart.

Confirmations…And so it is!

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Confirmations…And So It Is!

Ever since I was a little girl and began to tap into my intuitive abilities, I wanted assurance that was I was feeling and sensing was “real”.  There has always been a need inside to provide some sort of evidence as to what I was feeling within my body and sensing inside my heart and mind.  As I got older, that same desire of proof was there, but had faded as I began to expand my intuition and trust in the insight that came through.

When information comes to me it hits me like a wave.  If you think of what its like to stand on a beach with the ocean water covering your ankles as you watch the tide come towards you, that’s similar to the energetics I receive when I pick up messages and insight.  I get a feeling of a vibration coming towards my field and then it hits me like a wave washing over me.  As more understanding comes through, the waves become higher and more intense.  I never know how long the process will take or when the direction of the awareness will change.  It literally for me is all about going with the flow.  I guess you could call it soul surfing.

My need for confirmation has changed, yet there are times when messages from Spirit come through that I will later turn to my guides and question them, “Really?”  Many of the things that come through in an intuitive or healing session do not make sense to me but have personal connection for the clients I am working with.  I find there is always a higher purpose in all situations no matter if I “get it” or I don’t “get it”.

I recently met with a beautiful young woman and her mother.  The teenage girl was quite gifted with her healing touch abilities as well as her amazing connection to the rock and crystal kingdom.  She had been bullied in school and labeled with various issues throughout her short life.  To recognize her inherent gifts would be a huge impact on her self-esteem and this is what I encouraged her to explore.  Her mother and she went to a local rock shop here in town to pick up some things so the teenage girl could start experimenting.  As soon as they arrived, the mother was put off by the energy in an area of the store and was feeling quite anxious.  She wanted to leave, but found her daughter happily exploring in another room of the shop so she decided to stay.  The young woman found a few stones that called to her and together they went to the register to pay for their purchase.  As they were checking out, the mother mentioned to the man helping them that her daughter was a natural healer and was learning more about her connection to rocks.  He asked the young girl, “Did you see the rubies behind you?”  She did not hear him, but the mother did.  “Did you say rubies?” she asked.  He nodded yes, and showed them the display.  This was a clear message from Spirit.

In her session, the girl had asked about her half-sister who had passed.  She wanted to know if she was okay now and if she had any messages for her.  The sister was doing wonderful and told my client to be on the look out for a special sign she would be sending her soon – A ruby.  My client’s sister’s name was Ruby and she wanted very much to give her validation and assistance with what she was going through in this time of her life.

What a beautiful blessing and gift.  When the mother told me of this, the tears began to flow as I once again felt the love between these two sisters.  It was also a nice confirmation to me that what I was seeing was real.

Earlier this week, I had the amazing opportunity to work with a client doing distance energy work.  I’ve worked with her several times and most recently she’d been feeling out-of-place, like she didn’t belong.  She’d gotten the intuitive nudge that she might possibly be a starseed or a starperson – a soul that has derived from another star system within the solar system.  So many of her feelings coincided with what many in this situation express.

I started with a basic chakra clearing and asked for her guides to be present.  This time, one guide I’d never seen stepped forward.  He was unlike any other light being I’ve met before.  He began to show me a technique of bringing golden light into her energy field and forming geometric shapes over and through her field.  He said that she originated from Orion and this was an ancient healing technique used there.  As her field and vibration increased, I began to see the most beautiful shapes form in front of her chakra system.  They were colorful and well-defined.  Starting at the root chakra, one pattern formed in front of it and then shot inside of the chakra itself with a surge of energy.  The guide called these formations, “The Flower of Life” and said that they would assist my client and bring her further understanding.  Her energy field was a whirl of activity, light and beauty at the end of the session.

Uhhhhhh……starpeople?  Orion? Flower of Life?  That’s a bit much for even me to swallow and I’m neck deep into the “woo-woo” stuff.  But It felt so right.  Being in the flow of the session I did not question it for a moment.  Later, when my ego mind and logic came into play, I began to doubt.

As I sat in my office pondering what had happened, I felt a familiar presence in the room.  It was Arch Angel Michael.  “Still looking for confirmations, huh?  You know there was a time when you just clapped your hands and said ‘AND SO IT IS’ and that was all there was to it.  So, Ms. Doubting Thomas, why don’t you look up The Flower of Life and see what it is?”

(and by the way, there is a part of me that finds it incredibly funny that I have no issue at all talking to Angels and carrying on conversations with them, but to think that other light beings really exist in other star system seems like a stretch for me)

What I found online amazed me.  It took my breath away.  I know of sacred geometry and astronomy, but I am not versed in those studies.  I had no knowledge of the impact of Orion to the ancients people of this planet, nor did I know that The Flower of Life was a symbol used in sacred geometry or that the two are tied together.  To discover that was a HUGE ah-hah moment for me.

Allow me to introduce, The Flower of Life…

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I share this with you, not to put myself up on a pedestal, for that is not my intent.  My intent is to show you that sometimes trust and faith are vastly underrated.  We can spend so much of our time searching for validation that we miss the gifts and blessings directly in front of us.  The only confirmation that you really need is that your intuitive guidance feels RIGHT for YOU.

And let me just finish that off with a loud clapping of my hands as I affirm, “AND SO IT IS!”

Are You Ready to Let Go? (A Message From Arch Angel Michael)

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Are You Ready to Let Go?

( A Message From Arch Angel Michael )

 

Are you willing to let go of the false beliefs you cling to so tightly?  Are you ready to break free of the mold you’ve patterned yourself and your behaviors to exist within? Are you ready to CLAIM and LIVE your GREATNESS?

You have a calling.  That calling is to be the authentic you, the one that resides within your heart.  Your authenticity knows not of stress, prejudice or anguish.  The authentic you is the God/Goddess within you that knows with all the certainty of the Universe that you are worthy of love and joy beyond imagination.  To embrace these truths and this authenticity is to walk the path of ascension and understanding.

You read of others who have walked before you – the Buddha, the Christ, the Magdalene – what qualities did these human beings embody to achieve the level of light and power they personified?  What about them was different, and can all human beings exist in this same vibration?

Those whom you refer to as Masters and Saints had the inner knowing of their light and worth.  Not only did they acknowledge this and live within their light’s full frequency, but they also accepted it fully and completely.

This is the key.  This is the magic wand that will open the doorway to prosperity and abundance.

When you exist within a vibration of lack and fear, it is not in accordance with the inherent beacon of unconditional love that radiates inside your very heart, and indeed within your soul DNA structure itself.  When you downplay your strengths and capitalize upon your perceived weaknesses, you deny the very existence of Creator within you.

Why deny what is rightfully yours and the most incredible loving part of your being?  If you are born with green eyes, yet wear brown contacts, are your eyes still not green?  There is no running away from the truth.  You can disguise it.  You can stretch it to suit your fancy, but the truth always remain intact.  You are a being created in the likeness of all that is light and all that is pure and holy.  The energy and spark of Creator beats within your very heart.

To refuse the light that is you means you will encounter many opportunities to change your perception.  Situations will present where you will be tested and presented with experiences that can allow you to embrace the truth and release the falsity that you cling to.  These things happen not to punish you, but to act instead as lessons to teach and guide you.

And such is the duality of spirit living within physical form; the self-deception that you are separate from Creator, that God does not exist within you but instead in some far-away place that is unreachable or too difficult to access.

We are all one, Dear Ones.  There is no separation.  We are of one heart and created from the same vibration of unconditional love.

Accept this as truth.  Know it within and you will never be without.

Sometimes….I Freak Myself Out

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Sometimes….I Freak Myself Out

Being able to see and sense spirits, angels, ghosts, demons and energy is not always a simple thing in life to deal with.  There of course is the judgment factor from outside sources, along with the doubt and fear that you really are crazy.  When you’ve dealt with this issue for as long as I have, it is interesting that sometimes, I still freak myself out.

I’ve had several of those “ah-hah” moments with clients where I’ve tuned into a long lost loved one and given words of comfort; private messages that there was no way I could know about, or even guess.  I still remember a session I had a while ago.  It was with a woman and her uncle who had passed came into the room with us.  He was a very strong, masculine energy with an amazing sense of humor, but with still a very “tell it like it is” kind of personality. The woman was asking several questions and everything was flowing quite easily.  She then asked about a business venture she and her husband wanted to invest in.  She gave no details, but wanted to know if this would be a profitable step for them to take.  I heard the answer instantly and it was not coming from my guides.  Her uncle sat in the corner of the room and said, “Tell her the online sex toy business will do very well for them.”  My stomach dropped.  I had never met this woman.  I didn’t know where her opinions on this sort of thing were.  My ego and fear began to take over, causing me to get out of the flow of information.  I felt a loving presence place a hand on my shoulder and say, “It’s okay.  Trust.”  Taking a deep breath, I repeated the message from the uncle.  The woman laughed hysterically and said that was exactly what their business plans were.  I don’t think I have ever been so relieved in my entire professional career!

I’ve encountered more of those types of “wow” experiences within the last few days.  I was recently clearing a home for a family and was on site for the process.  As soon as I arrived at the front door I felt an incredible sadness, yet it did not feel associated to anyone living under this roof.  I walked in and began to hear sobbing, screaming and feel pure desperation.  The heaviness on my chest was immense as I began to empathically take in the emotions of a woman my guides called, “she who does not rest.” I immediately recognized that there was a soul here who had passed in the physical but had not crossed over.  She was confused.  She was overwhelmed.  She was lost.  I sat with the family as they explained some of the disturbances in the house – things breaking down for no reason and repeatedly, items being moved and lost, bite marks on belongings, physical scratches and thermostat changes.  I told them of the deep grief and sadness I was feeling and asked to tour the house.  I found the room where the woman most liked to occupy and sat in meditation to connect with her.  She had lost her husband.  She was looking for him.  She did not understand where he was, where she was, or why these people were here in this place.  The woman had been gone from the physical for almost 200 years, and for all of that time in between had been experiencing the torment and turmoil of the accident that had caused her death, along with the loss and grief for her husband.  There was a lot of emotions stirred up – grief, rage, anger, fear, denial, hurt, despair – you get the picture.  She was not happy in the slightest, and the energies of her feelings were causing disturbances for this family.  I explained to her that it was time to cross and reconnect with her family and friends.  She did not believe me and was very resistant.  I asked for the assistance of Arch Angel Gabriel to bring down the tunnel of light and as it appeared, the hand of her loving husband extended out of it beckoning her to join him.  With a huge smile on her face, she ran to him and was gathered up into his arms.  Such an amazing sight to witness.  I came out of trance, and as I turned to go down the stairs to report to the family, I was shown a vision of the couple’s death.  They were riding in some sort of a house drawn buggy from the 1800’s.  The rainstorm came out of nowhere and they became trapped in a flash flood.  She was thrown from the rig and both she and her husband drowned.  Oh…and did I mention the family had suffered three major cases of flooding in the home?  Twice downstairs and once upstairs.  No coincidences here.  The continued trauma of this lost soul impacted the  surroundings of where she allowed her emotion to release and express.

My next recent “freak out” was during an energy session with a woman who wanted to clear a past life relationship that was affecting her current life.  A bit about past lives: when we die in a manner that is sudden and violent, many times we will hold that cellular memory within our current lifetime.   The cellular memory can impact our health, our relationships and our actions.  I think of it like loading a program on my computer a long time ago.  Sure, it may be outdated and very old, but I can still access it when I want to.  And it’s components can definitely influence the operation of the entire computer.  (Sorry….worked too long as a computer tech not to have that come up!)  Your cellular memory can always be accessed it’s just a matter of knowing what right path to take to get there.  I could readily see this lifetime with my client and that it was brutally ended at someone else’s hand.  She lay on my healing table and I knew that the best course of action was to regress her back to the moment of death, remove any impure energies exchanged in that moment and then re-script the outcome.  The regression began, and we were in the midst of the interaction.  My client began to flinch, move and spasm on the table and I could see in my mind’s eye a large sword being plunged deep into her chest.

Here is where the subject gets a little tricky to understand.  Bear with me, I will do my best to walk you through it.  Take a deep breath.  Here we go.  There really is no such thing as time.  Time is a human creation that we use to justify and measure our experiences.  Every single thing you’ve ever done as a soul is recorded in your brain and can be recalled, just like memory on a mainframe computer.  When we access that memory, it can be very real, much like you can bring back those smells in grandma’s kitchen from a long time ago, or the happiness you felt on your wedding day.  This is how the brain and the soul work.  In a regression and re-scripting, the client and I both journey back to the point in time that requires healing and through shamanic technique, I become the observer to the situation; meaning I can see exactly what the client is seeing and feeling.

Back to the freak out….

I began to pull the sword out of my client.  It was long and deeply embedded within her.  I’ve pulled daggers, swords and various weapons out of many people before, and most come out quite easily.  This was not the case this time.  I pulled, I yanked and I used various energetic techniques.  This was something that needed to come out before any re-scripting could take place.  There was a stickiness to this sword for when I pulled on it there was a sucking sensation that drew it back in.  Finally, together we released this terrible implement of hatred.  There was immense pain and I quickly began to energetically close the wound, clear and heal it.  Placing my hands on her chest and channeling in light, my guide whispered in my ear something about “the sword of darkness.”  Well, heck yeah…that’s a good name for it!  We completed the re-scripting and session.  My client also remarked that there was something different about the sword she saw.  I told her that what I saw was a sap like substance covering it and she agreed that this was what presented to her as well.  She was pain free by the end of the session and said it felt like everything looked quite different now.

I happened to be in line waiting somewhere a short time later and got the nudge to look up poisonous sap used in medieval times.  My guides know I have been a computer nerd, thanks to my Dad, my whole life so they incorporate this into giving me information.  I was guided to a specific link that spoke of a plant commonly called Monkshood.  Here’s a small portion of the article:

“In ancient Roman times, monkshood was recognized as a potent poison and was sometimes used by assassins, such as the killer of Emperor Claudius. Soldiers sometimes coated their arrows and sword blades with the sap from the plant before going into battle.”

It went on further to explain how this plant held the most toxic poison in Europe and was used extensively in medieval times.  Talk about a freak out!  I had no clue that people would put sap on their weapons to ensure the victim’s death.  The poison within the sap would cause paralysis, vomiting and organ failure.  No wonder my guide called it, “the sword of darkness.”  During the session, I had seen the attacker preparing this sword with the sap in a dark room in a castle.  All the puzzle pieces fit together.  It made sense.  Still freaked me out by the huge confirmation, but made sense nonetheless.

I can’t explain why these things come through to me other than I know that they just do.  It’s like trying to figure out how a camera works…I have no clue, but I know I can use it and it will work when I need it to.

Great Expectations…

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Great Expectations

Where are our expectations?  How much time do we use expecting something to happen?  Someone to react in a certain way?  A situation to turn around to our liking?

The very definition of expectation is: the act or state of looking forward or anticipating.

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So is expectation then a positive or a negative force?  That is for each individual to decide on their own.  I, however, got a big dose of discernment on this subject within the last few days.  What I realized about my expectations was that they were not serving my higher purpose.  Allow me to explain.

My daughter, Alexis, turned 17 years old yesterday.  We are in that stage of our mother/daughter relationship where she is fighting to assert her independence and I am struggling to maintain healthy boundaries for her.  Welcome to the life of parenting a teenager!  Yes, I was one of them….once, and a very long, long time ago.

We wanted to do something special for Alexis and enlisted one of her good friends to plan a surprise party for her.  Lots of planning, sneaking and shopping went into getting all the details just right for the big surprise.  We all waited in anticipation for Alexis to walk through the door of the clubhouse so we could rush out and welcome her into her special celebration.  She was surprised, no doubt, and went around the room hugging each of her friends and thanking them for being there.  I waited for my turn, so happy that we’d pulled off the big secret, which was my idea after all.

Alexis came over to where I was and I waited for the biggest mommy/daughter hug ever.  Instead, what I got was, “Are you staying?”

I was crushed!  I had put so much time and effort into all this.  How selfish she was!  Couldn’t she understand?  I was hurt in the very place in my heart that had motivated me to create such an experience for her.  I foolishly mumbled something to her about what a way to say thank you and drifted back into the sidelines inside the kitchen, which is where I planned to stay for the majority of the evening anyway.

I began to let these feelings stew inside me, not realizing they were triggering so much more than just a simple remark.  All those doubts, non-acceptance, and unworthiness began to bubble up to the surface.  So much emotion came forward.  When I reached a quiet time, within the following days, I asked for assistance from my guides.

“What did you honestly expect?  Did you expect a 17-year-old girl to put your feelings first?  You know she appreciated it.  For her to show you accolades in front of her friends is not her personality style.  You know this.  Why allow your feelings to be hurt over something that is not out of the norm?

What was your motivation in creating this evening for her?  Was it with the intention that you would be awarded a prize?  Did you want acknowledgement from her and her circle of friends as to what a wonderful mother you are?  If this is the case, then it is indeed time you look closely at your actions, Dear One.  I feel that you did this to make your daughter happy, plain and simple.  It was to alleviate some of the sadness that has come up recently and the party was to make her feel special and surround her with friends.  Was that not your motivation?  And did you not succeed?  Could you see she was having a wonderful time?”

Those words sunk in deep.  Wow….why was I reacting so strongly to this?

“You react in this fashion, my dear, because you expect from others all those things you want to feel for yourself.  When instead, you can really only place expectations on yourself and no one else.  To anticipate how another person will react is in reality trying to control the outcome of a situation.  Can you see this?  And indeed, in many instances expectation can be a form of self sabotage.  For if the person or situation does not meet your expectation, then you can justify all those false beliefs and fears that hide away in the recesses of your ego mind.  This is why all those other feelings you’ve been experiencing have come to the surface.”

This all made so much sense to me.  It was as if a light bulb suddenly clicked on.

“You cannot set an intention for someone else.  You can only control yourself and your own circumstance.  This is not to say that you should allow anyone to treat you with disrespect, for that is something entirely different – that is setting a boundary of what you will and will not accept.  Your expectations should only be directed at yourself and how you intend to act, feel and react.  Look at your motivations and base them solely on your own behaviors and intentions.  Your intention in this instance was to make a wonderful evening for your darling daughter.  And this came to fruition, did it not?  If you base your actions in expectation of how someone else will react or treat you, then your intention is not coming from the highest and purest vibration.  Many times, it is easy to fall into the trap and pattern of always wanting something in return.  But to merely accept your actions and intentions as positive and release the reaction  and expectation of others is to truly be in a place of peace and balance.  You do not require anyone’s approval but your own.

See this only as the lesson that it is.  Feel not failure or judgment about it.  You’ve learned and you’ve grown.  This is was all experiences bring to your life.  It is all good.”

With those words I was left with an incredible feeling of lightness within my heart.  It felt literally like a weight had been taken from my body.  The heaviness of confusion and self-criticism left my being.  I was in a state of peace.

I’ve learned to let go of the expectation of what and how I think other people in my life should react to my own actions.  This is a freedom I have not felt before, except perhaps when I was a very small child.  It is a place of adaptation and acceptance.  It is a freedom to be in the flow of life moment to moment.

Great expectations I only place upon myself and in doing so I receive the greatest gift of all.

Pay Attention to the Signs

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Pay Attention to the Signs

 

Depending on your belief system of life and death, you may or may not believe that souls communicate from the other side of the veil once they’ve passed on.  If you doubt the fact of after death communication, I would invite you to keep an open mind and pay attention to the signs.  Heck, don’t just pay attention to them – ASK FOR THEM.

I am reminded of a time in 1993 when I’d been married for two years and my husband and I were trying to conceive our first child.  After one year of trying, I was getting pretty hopeless and down, doubting my physical issues and thinking that I was the cause of our seemingly infertile state.  I joined a prayer group at church, and we began to pray for one another’s goals.  As I repeated my prayers and affirmations, I asked my grandmother, who had crossed over, to help give me a sign that I was pregnant.  About six weeks went by, and as I was counting a deposit at work, I found my sign.  I had asked for a twenty dollar bill with my birth year on it (1969) to come into my life.  Anyone who deals with money knows that most bills in circulation are quite new and older bills are pretty rare.  I bought the $20 out of the deposit and stopped at my doctor’s office on the way home from work.  You guessed it – I was pregnant!

Much of the time, those signs show up for us when we’re not expecting them.  They are a little reminder from our loved ones that they are okay and that they are thinking of us.  I’ve been experiencing those instances quite frequently since the recent deaths of my father and father in law.

My husband and I were out to lunch last week when a Santana song began to play over the sound system at the restaurant.  Not out of the ordinary for a Mexican restaurant, but then the following song that played was the one that came on our IPod in the hospital right after George, my father in law, passed.  We took note of it and then a short time later, the song that plays in the background of the online memorial I created for George began to play.  I looked at Tim, my husband, and told him that I thought his father was trying to tell him something.  The ever doubting skeptic looked at me, smiled and laughed it off.

He then received a phone call from the minister that was performing the memorial service to go over details.  As they planned and spoke together with my mother in law, I could feel George’s presence very strong.  Tim was tasked with finding music for the ceremony.  As we returned to our meal, the song, “Somewhere in Heaven” began to play.  This is the song that plays during the memorial video we made for the service.  It is a very obscure song, beautiful in fact, but never a hit and I’ve never heard it played in public anywhere.  Tim gasped in amazement and said, “You’ve got to be freaking kidding me!”

Coincidence?  Is there even such a thing?  Is it coincidence then that after that song as we discussed music to play at the service other songs began to flood through the sound system we’ve never heard before that were spot on perfect for his father – a flamenco guitar rendition of Stairway to Heaven followed by a Latin version of Dust in the Wind.  And even more so, was it coincidence that the restaurant sold this CD?  We’ve been dining there for seven years, since it opened, and we’ve never seen music for sale.  The waiter told us about the artist and when we checked the CD label it was recorded in La Mesa, CA, a few miles away from where George lived much of his life.

Other signs appeared.  George’s ashes arrived a few hours before the service while both his sisters were at the house.  We were not expecting them to be delivered till the following week, but in true form, George was never late for a party!  The technical system went crazy at the service – mics came on and shut off, music was played while other songs were supposed to play.  The video was delayed.  But it was all divinely orchestrated and perfect in it’s own right – just like George.

I remember standing at the pulpit, waiting for the background music to begin to play so I could sing the song, “My Way.”  The song did not start right away, but it was nice to have a few moments to catch my breath.  As I did, I could feel George right next to me.  The first few verses went fine, and then I began to shake.  I had to hold onto the podium because I thought my legs might give way.  I could fully feel his energy all around me, whirling around like the tornado he always has been.  He chose that song to convey to everyone what his life meant to him.  I began to cry through the second half of the song, but finished strong as his energy moved through me.  I’ve never experienced anything like that before, but as you read the lyrics to the song, I think you’ll understand what George wanted  everyone to understand:

“My Way”

And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I’ll say it clear
I’ll state my case, of which I’m certain
I’ve lived a life that’s full
I traveled each and ev’ry highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Regrets, I’ve had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course, each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Yes, there were times, I’m sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way

I’ve loved, I’ve laughed and cried
I’ve had my fill, my share of losing
And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say, not in a shy way,
“Oh, no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way”

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows and did it my way!

 

Allow your heart to be open to the signs.  Watch for them.  Ask for them.  You’ve loved ones, guides and angels are always near, lovingly waiting to make known their presence.